It’s A Man’s Man’s Man’s World – James Brown

This is a mans world
This is a mans world
But it would be nothing, nothing
Without a women or a girl

Dear Diary – February 20th 1975

Why is it that men control our world? We women are told to marry a man, who then becomes the family’s patriarch.

My friends keep telling me to give Potter a go. He is such a toerag! They think Severus is the toerag, but I disagree. Besides, why should I settle? I want to do more for our future generations than just marry and become a housewife. It’s such a chauvinistic thing for those men to assume of us women. I won’t have it!

Mark my words; I will make a difference in the wizarding world, one way or another.

All Of The Stars – Ed Sheeran

It's just another night, and I'm staring at the moon.
I saw a shooting star, and thought of you.
I sang a lullaby, by the waterside and knew.
If you were here, I'd sing to you.

Dear Diary – September 10th 1977

I’m sitting by the lake. I just need to think.

I couldn’t seriously be thinking about Potter, could I? I mean… he was such a toerag. But I can’t stop thinking of him. Yvette thinks I have feelings for him, and I’m afraid she might be right.

I’m looking at the stars and wonder if he is staring at the same ones. I’m seeing the moon rise and set over the horizon, and I wonder if the beauty captures him, too? My heart clenches in my chest when he’s near. I want to lie next to him, our hands entwined.

Here Comes The Sun – The Beatles

Little darling, it's been a long cold lonely winter
Little darling, it feels like years since it's been here
Here comes the sun, here comes the sun
And I say it's all right

Dear Diary – January 30th 1971

You will NEVER BELIEVE!

I, Lily Evans, am a WITCH!

Today on my eleventh birthday, I got a letter. Not just any letter, not just a boring birthday card from a great aunt, it was the ultimate letter. The ultimate present.

It’s called Hogwarts. An old man came, introducing himself as Albus Dumbledore, the headmaster. He explained it all to my parents. He told me the reason I struggled at school so much was because my powers were trying to develop. It’s why I can’t concentrate.

And suddenly a fog has cleared. I’m not stupid, after all.

Poor Petunia cried.

Haunted – Taylor Swift

He would try to take away my pain,
And he just might make me smile
But the whole time I'm wishing he was you
Instead

Dear Diary – August 1st 1976

This has been the worst summer.

Part of me wants to forgive Severus, but I understand now that he has changed too much.

I keep getting letters from Potter, who came to talk to me on the train home. He was trying to make me smile, and he was successful.

He’s so different by himself.

But I don’t want him. He doesn’t understand me like Severus does. Well, did.

Would Severus have said that to me if he hadn’t been bullied? Or did he always think that of me? Why did he have to fall in with the wrong crowd?

The Boxer – Simon and Garfunkel

When I left my home, And my family, I was no more than a boy,
In the company of strangers, In the quiet of the railway station, Running scared,
Laying low, Seeking out the poorer quarters Where the ragged people go,
Looking for the places, Only they would know.

Dear Diary – November 18th 1972

Last week was a full moon, and one of my housemates turned into a werewolf.

I didn’t feel scared, because I saw him with a Professor. I think Dumbledore wanted him to be able to come to Hogwarts.

Last night I saw Remus and told him I saw what had happened. He was deeply upset that I knew, but you should have seen his tremendous relief when I told him I didn’t care. It saddens me to know he has been segregated in the past for being what he is, how frustrated and lonely he has been made to feel.

Superstar – Sonic Youth

Loneliness
Is such a sad affair
And I can hardly wait
To be with you again

Dear Diary – September 1st 1977

Why do I feel so lonely? My girlfriends are all infatuated with their boyfriends and crushes, but meanwhile I’ve just had one prat follow me around for years, and I keep turning him down.

Would it be so bad to just give him a chance? Remus can’t understand why I don’t.

I feel a desire to be loved. To be kissed. I want my own romantic story, so what if Potter is somehow my match? My desires to be like the other girls are too new to me. I fear I’m just another typical girl looking for a typical love.

Somebody That I Used To Know – Gotye

No, you didn’t have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records, and then change your number
I guess that I don’t need that though
Now you’re just somebody that I used to know

Dear Diary – September 2nd 1976

Severus tried apologising today. The sight of him walking down the great hall towards me was so familiar. I almost reached out to hug my friend. But I remember.

Mulciber and Avery were hovering behind. They are the reason my friend is delving deeper into their lives. It makes me sick.

And it’s not that he lashed out and took out his embarrassment on me; I could forgive that, but that he is consciously deciding against the light, against the good. Getting involved in acts of dark, harmful magic, I cannot forgive.

He could never apologise for doing that. Never.

Give Me Love – Ed Sheeran

Give me love like never before,
'Cause lately I've been craving more,
And it's been a while but I still feel the same,
Maybe I should let you go.

Dear Diary – November 1st 1977

I am actually going to write this on paper!

I kissed James Potter.

Last night after the Halloween Feast he pulled me outside and said “Lily I know I’ve been a prat in the past, but I’m trying to change. I’m trying to grow up. I realise you might want me to stop, but my feelings for you haven’t changed. I love you. I need to put the ball in your court, and I understand if it stays there.”

Then he turned to leave.

Without thinking, I closed the distance between us, leaned up and kissed him on the mouth.

How To Save A Life – The Fray

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed

Dear Diary - August 29th 1976

I am upset that my best friend, or more correctly, who I THOUGHT was my best friend, all along, through everything, thought those things about me. I feel so stupid. The signs were all there. He hangs out with those… those idiots, those dark, dangerous, blood-purity obsessed idiots. How could he not think those things? But what upsets me more than him saying those hurtful words is that I’m realising he means it. Friends or not, I can’t associate myself with someone who believes those things. I sense a change. I’m frightened that Severus will have a part in this.

Titanium – David Guetta

I'm bulletproof, nothing to lose, fire away, fire away
Ricochet, you take your aim, fire away, fire away
You shoot me down but I won't fall
I am titanium

Dear Diary - January 30th 1976

Today I am sixteen. Mum and dad sent a card and some gifts, and signed it from Mum, Dad and Petunia. She couldn’t even send me a card, after I’ve sent her cards every year. Well, she thinks her silence is going to silence me? She is wrong. Even though she is so stubborn and cold, she is still my sister and I will not let her win. Because letting her win means giving her up.

So; I, Lily Evans, vow to NEVER let Petunia silence my pleas, and I will never let her take my sister away from me.

All Fired Up – Pat Benatar

Now I believe there comes a time
When everything just falls in line
We live and learn from our mistakes
The deepest cuts are healed by faith

Dear Diary - June 30th 1978

We are no longer students, and the scary world out there is waiting for us. Myself, I plan to fight with The Order. I will fight against the evil in this world, and I will protect its safety at whatever cost. But all ties to my former friend had to be severed.

Here it is. I forgive him for what he did to me. But as for what he does to other people, it is not my forgiveness to give. To pledge myself to the order, I must forgive and release, so that I can fight without remorse against evil.

You’re My Best Friend – Queen

You're the best friend, that I ever had
I've been with you such a long time, you're my sunshine
And I want you to know, that my feelings are true I really love you
You're my best friend

Dear Diary - September 1st 1974

Even though I saw them a few times through the holidays, I was so happy to get back to the girl’s dorm and see that we’re all still together this year. I never thought I’d enjoy sharing a room, seeing as we always had separate rooms at home, but since starting at Hogwarts THREE YEARS ago (wow), I can’t imagine not sharing. I really felt lonely in my room with no one to talk to, at home. Petunia gives me the cold shoulder, even when mum tells her to be nice. It’s nice to be surrounded by my best girlfriends.

Flashlight - Jessie J

I got all I need when I got you and I
I look around me, and see a sweet life
I'm stuck in the dark but you're my flashlight
You're getting me, getting me, through the night

Dear Lily - August 5th 1975

I wish we had been in the same house, then I'd be able to see you all the time. At least we're on holiday now and we can see each other whenever we want! I know that whenver I have a bad day I can tell you about it and you help me accept things for how they are.

I can't wait to graduate. We're going to be great at teaching; me, Professor Snape of Potions, you Professor Evans-Snape of Charms. It's just what I need to get through these years, to keep focusing on our future.

Love, Sev.

A Book Like This - Angus and Julia Stone

Sun lights up the day time,
You light up my life.
The hand that calls you forward
is the hand that leaves me behind.

Dear Diary- November 8th 1975

Sev is starting to worry me.

We were speaking about how we would use our abilities for good, and he said he wouldn't use it to protect muggles. I was outraged.

I feel a sense of duty to protect those who cannot protect themselves against the dark lord. What defense do they have, considering even skilled magical folk are defenseless?

He is biased because of his father, and I worry that he will see me for who I am. Will he still love me? Protect me? I feel he will be called away from me by those he's involved with.

Bridge over Troubled Water – Simon & Garfunkel

Sail on Silver Girl,
Sail on by
Your time has come to shine
All your dreams are on their way

Dear Diary- September 15th 1971

Hogwarts is so amazing, and I just feel so happy to be here.

I remember when mum and dad used to make me do extra maths work, because I struggled with it so much. But now that I’m here, I feel like it all makes sense, why I struggled so much. I was never meant to learn muggle things.

I love charms, and potions is interesting too. I brewed a successful potion in my FIRST lesson, and the only person who did better than me was Sev. He’s talented at potions, but I made my feather levitate before he did.

Somewhere Over the Rainbow – E.Y. Harburg

Someday I'll wish upon a star
And wake up where the clouds are far behind me.
Where troubles melt like lemon drops, away above the chimney tops
That's where you'll find me

Dear Diary- June 1st 1976

Where do I even begin with this hellish year? Thank Merlin I’m about to finish my fifth year, because much longer and I fear I won’t survive.

From OWL study, which is severely tedious, to breaking apart fights between my fellow Gryffindors and my friend Severus, to my girlfriends badgering on about boys and fashion, to growing threats from you-know-who.

I only have a month until my exams, and the only thing getting me through this awful period is the thought of summer. No more study, I don’t have to be around toerags, and I can enjoy another carefree break.

We are Never Ever Getting Back Together – Taylor Swift

We are never ever ever getting back together,
We are never ever ever getting back together,
You go talk to your friends, talk to my friends, talk to me
But we are never ever ever ever getting back together

Dear Diary- February 20th 1974

DEAR MERLIN!

I don’t think I can take another one of my friend’s breakups. I just never want to date! EVER.

Ever.

Not if this is what it’s going to be like.

Two friends had dates for Valentine’s Day, and then their dates started ignoring them. They’re heartbroken.

Two other friends have been CONSTANTLY breaking up with their boyfriends and getting back together. After each breakup, they’re heartbroken, and I have to tell them the exact same things over and over.

They all keep getting hurt, because they repeat the same silly mistakes.

Lesson one: if it’s over; IT’S OVER.

What A Wonderful World – Louis Armstrong

I see skies of blue and clouds of white
The bright blessed day, the dark sacred night
And I think to myself,
What a wonderful world

Dear Diary- December 20th 1975

Whenever the walls of Hogwarts seem too much for me to deal with, I seek peaceful solace underneath the tree by the lake. I come here often, day and night. At night I sneak out. Every so often the idiot ‘marauders’ leave the invisibility cloak out and I can borrow it, helping to conceal myself from the patrolling professors.

I just never realised how beautiful the world could be. I come out here, and during the day it’s crisp, the lush landscape of Hogwarts reflects beautifully upon the current season. Even at night, the stars light up the night sky.

Just A Girl – No Doubt

I'm just a girl, living in captivity
Your rule of thumb makes me worry some
I'm just a girl, what's my destiny?
What I've succumbed to is making me numb

Dear Diary- August 4th 1977

MERLIN Petunia is so bloody frustrating. And my FATHER is not much better. Where do I even start!?

Sitting in the kitchen talking to mother, reading through my new Charms textbook. I was telling her all about my career pathway. I’d spoken with the Professor’s about it before selecting my subjects, and they agreed with my current schedule. In walks Petunia and she starts blabbering on about ‘Why are you even bothering with study?’ I just looked at her, gobsmacked.

Then father starts on his ‘You’ll be giving it up when you get married anyway, so why bother this study?’

I Walk The Line – Johnny Cash

As sure as night is dark and day is light
I keep you on my mind both day and night
And happiness I've known proves that it's right
Because you're mine, I walk the line

Dear Evans – February 10th 1978

I can’t stop thinking about you. Thoughts of you occupy my mind, day and night. The feeling I get with your hand in mine, or your lips on mine; it’s enough to sink the sun and raise the stars.

I’m so certain of how I feel for you, Lily. And with school ending in a few months, I hope your feelings are as certain as mine. I want those adult things with you, a family and a home. Saying these things doesn’t even scare me, not with you. I want to be with you, walking through life hand in hand.

Why Worry – Dire Straits

Why worry, there should be laughter after the pain
There should be sunshine after rain
These things have always been the same
So why worry now

Dear Diary – September 2nd 2971

It’s only my second day here, but already I feel like the things Petunia said to me happened years ago. It’s hard to think it was only a few months ago, really.

It was really hard being at home with her after that. There wasn’t anything mum or dad could say to make her see reason, to be my friend again, and I hated being at home around her. But here, it just makes me realise that I don’t need to worry. I have lots of friends here, people I can call family, people I’ll be around more than Petunia.

Have Yourself A Merry Little Christmas – Judy Garland

Have yourself a Merry little Christmas,
Let your heart be light
From now on,
Our troubles will be out of sight

Dear Diary – December 24th 1977

I found Professor Dumbledore’s speech most helpful tonight at the Christmas feast. Going into exam period for our exams is such a stressful time, and I worry that we are all so highly wound that we cannot appreciate those times to unwind and have fun. Tonight was one of those times, and we were importantly reminded to leave our worries at the door. It was fun, smiling once more and enjoying ourselves. Even James, Sirius and Severus weren’t throwing curses at each other tonight, and I saw the tension unfold from Remus like all of his ropes had been severed.

Graduation (Friends Forever) – Vitamin C

But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day

Dear Diary – June 30th 1978

There were tears. Of course there were tears.

I had to say goodbye to the best friends I had made during the past seven years, and that was so tough. Not only saying goodbye to them for the summer, but knowing I might not ever see some of them for a long time, as they go off to explore the world. We won’t be sharing a dorm together, or returning to the dorm. We won’t be returning to Hogwarts, attending classes together, or sharing out lives.

It’s all over, and saying goodbye is so hard. It’s bittersweet, leaving Hogwarts forever.

The Circle of Life – Elton John

It's the Circle of Life, and it moves us all
Through despair and hope, through faith and love
‘Till we find our place, on the path unwinding
In the Circle, the Circle of Life

Dear Diary – June 30th 1978

It’s officially over. We’re on the train heading home. We just had our graduation ceremony, and we didn’t realise we would be arriving at Hogsmeade Station by boat.

How poetic; our time at Hogwarts came full circle. We arrived by boat, and we leave by boat, surrounding those seven years we have all been together, everything we did together and went through together. It seals it off, completely. We arrived together; we leave together. Though this time we could only manage two to a boat. And now we all go off to find out own place, following our own paths.