Pam looked up at the sudden noise. It was Nate. She didn't know who he was talking about, but it was one of two people. Pam, or Faina. And she had her money on the latter. Of course it's me! He loves me. He wants to be with me. You're just a friend. And you always will be. The voice in her head continued to hiss profound things to her. It had come to the point were she forgot about Nate completly. She was too worried about the voice. She couldn't get it out, and she probably never could. She pulled her knees up to her chest, buried her head, and started crying.

And what could Nate do? Pam's tears were his fault. How could he possibly alleviate them? He continued pacing, wiping more and more tears as he went back and forth. But I did love Faina... No. No, I do love Faina. I can't escape that. A small sob escaped his throat. But I love Pam, too! Why does this have to be so hard?! Nate collapsed and stayed there, shivering and starting to cry on the stone floor, longing for someone. But who was it? Who did he want? Was it Pam, or was it Faina? Nate couldn't tell as he lie there in a slowly growing pool of his own tears.

Pam looked up, and suddenly felt regret. She should be helping her friend get through his problems. Not sit around, waiting for someone to fix hers. Not finding the strength to walk, she crawled over to Nate, and touched his shoulder. "Nate." She said in a quiet, hoarse, voice. What are you doing?! The voice hissed, sorta sounding Italian. I'm helping my friend. Pam responded in her head. She wasn't about to let the voice of who she feared most rule her life. She was going to help her friend, in any means neccessary.

When Pam touched his shoulder Nate felt better, but he also realized at that point that he was truly longing for Faina. He felt a stab of ice pierce his heart, and couldn't help saying, "I'm sorry Pam. I'm so so sorry!" through his tears before splashing facedown in his puddle of sadness.

Pam instantly knew what he ment, and felt a pang out jealousy, and sadness. She wanted, more than anything, to run and cry. But she stayed. She wrapped her arms around him, and sat through his crying. She held back her own tears and stroked his hair. "Shhh... Don't cry now. I'm alright. If she is who you love, go for her." She hugged him tighter. "She's a lucky gal."

Nate looked up and smiled sheepishly. "But I love you too. I love you both. I can't hide that no matter how hard I try. You're sure? I don't want to just tear out your heart and leave you as an empty, soulless carcass..." he said, not wanting to think about Pam in such a state.

She looked down at him and smiled. Although that's how she felt, she wouldn't let him onto that. "I'm fine." She lied. She hugged him tighter and said. "But you're not leaving me. You're still Nathaniel Stone, my best friend. Right?" She tried hard to repeat what he had said to try and cover up the voice her head laughing. I told you so! He wants to be with me! The girl laughed, and skipped around in her head.

"Always."
And he leaned up and kissed her cheek. "Pam?" Nate started, not knowing where he was taking the conversation, "Pam, I think you should write your dad and tell him not to try and learn to fly. He may just kill himself." probably not what she wanted to hear, but it leaked anyways.

"Yea, we wouldn't want that." Pam said with a chuckle. Which didn't really sound like a chuckle. More of a cough. But it was ment to be a chuckle. Her cheeck felt warm, and she could feel the tears coming. She cleared her throat. "Hey, Nate? Are you alright if I go for a walk? Or would you rather I stay here a bit?" She knew exactly were she needed to go.

"Walk me to the common room first?" he asked. He severely needed sleep, having been short on it over all of the emotional torture he was going through each night. He was surprised his fits didn't wake Cael or Scott, but the less they knew the better. Right?
Nate stood up next to Pam. "You can lead the way," he said genty.

Pam stood up, and nodded. She could handle that much. She walked slowly, a pace or two ahead of Nate, and lead the way to the commons.

Orr was walking down the sixth floor, going past the Transfiguration classroom when her bag in which Ginger the egg resided started shaking.

Aurora stopped and looked inside the bag where she found all her parchments and books soaking wet and Ginger twitching happily at the sight of her. Orr groaned a little as she reached into the bag to grab Ginger who was completely wet.

"What did you do, you silly egg?" Orr said shaking her head, "We've gone over this, I can't always pay attention to you 24/7."

In response, Ginger gave off a sad little shake as if to apologize.

"Apology accepted. You know that I can't stay mad at you for long." Orr said as she found her wand. She twirled and pointed it at Ginger while uttering "Argentum Siccus"

She continued to dry the contents of her bag.

"She cant take him away from you. Even if she does you still have me and your other friends. She will realise what he is like when she gets hurt also. Its ok, cry it out it will help" he said to her hugging her.

Pam sobbed into Harvey for a little while longer before talking. "thanks."

Harvey continued to hold onto Pam she sobbed into him "Its ok.. no problem" he said to her smiling. He always wanted to be there for Pam and all his other friends.

Pam continued to sob. "this just makes me feel terrible, ya know, if they officially end up together. And because they'll be living together, it's bound to happen by the end of the summer. That just makes me feel worthless." all of it did.

Harvey continued to hold onto Pam, as she cried into him even more. He felt his shirt getting cold in the area where she was crying and realised that her tears were seeping through his jumper and onto his shirt. But he didnt care about this, all he cared about was his friend Pam crying out all her pain. He never wanted any of his friends to bottle up the pain they had inside, so he didnt say anything but instead listened to what she was saying. He then was shocked to hear how she felt about all of this "Why should you feel worthless?" he asked her "Just because they get together? Well you shouldnt feel like that, Nate is not the only friend in your life. Me along with others are all your friends, so why should you feel worthless?" he asked repeating himself "I dont want you to feel worthless, if there is something I can do to make you feel less worthless I want to know, ok?" he told her. He wanted to make her feel better, and if was by making her feel less worthless than she already felt, then he would do it.

Pam wiped her eyes on the back of her sleeve. "thanks Harvey. There isn't much you can do right now. But you've already done a lot. You're a really good friend. Thanks a lot." She smiled and looked up at Harvey. She realized that she had spent all this time talking about her problems. "Are you ok? How are things with you?"

Harvey watched as she wiped her sleeve "No problem Pam, that is what friends are for, to help you. I havent done much Pam, I listened to your problems and tried to make you feel better, but that is it. That aint much." he said looking at her and giving her a smile "Oh me? same old, same old. Me and Ronnit together, still" he said. He wanted to tell her about Minnie being single again, but he thought it would be best if it came straight from Minnie. He didnt want to talk about her behind her back, it was just rude, and he knew how much she hated it. So he didnt mention anything of it. "Anything else you want to talk about or get off your chest to make you feel less burdened. I am here to listen to ALL your problems." he said smiling. He wanted her to talk if it made her feel better.

Pam smiled. "I'm glad you guys ate still going strong. Youre cute together." she had seen them together in classes and she was glad that they still had eachother. "I'm good right now. I just had to tell you that." she smiled. She was also glad she had a friend like Harvey to listen to her problems. It ment a lot to her to have someone to talk to.

Harvey smiled shyly "Aw thanks Pam. Yeah we are, and I think it is going to last. Ronnie was telling me that she wants to be with me forever, which shocked me at first as it showed how much she liked me. But I am happy she feels that way." he said to her smilng as he thought of Ronnie.

"Thats cute. Me, being a girl, I know we like to imagine our weddings." she giggled. "Even if we're twelve years old." it felt good to giggle for once. To show emotion other than sadness.

Harvey listened to Pam and then it struck him what Ronnie had said before. "Well that makes sense, since she let slip once that she saw me in the role of her husband, it shocked me at first, but now I see how she feels. Plus you explaining planning weddings at such a young age. It doesnt seem so shocking now." he said smiling to Pam. "Have you imagined yours?" he asked her curiously. He was learning more new things about these girls every week. They imagined alot.

Pam nodded sheepishly. "I have. Mainly with Nate, but I have." she sighed dreamily. She had imagined a huge wedding with a big dress in a big church. She wanted a really big wedding. But a a part of her wouldn't mind jut a simple wedding with a simple dress. With a little sparkle of course.

Harvey's smile lessened a little at the mention of Nate as her husband, not a good idea. If he is like this now without marriage who knows what might happen after marriage. Nope not a good idea "Well so all girls do imagine it then. Must ask Ronnie how she plans to have hers. Well when you choose the guy that you want to be with all your life, I hope that he well and truely deserves you, and appreciates what he has when he has it." he said smiling, and he meant it. After all that she has endured in JUST her first year.