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Biochemkris · 11-14-2007, 06:28 PM

Professor Branxton walked to the far end of the lake and stood in the shadow of a large oak. It was an out of the way kind of place to meet without looking like they meant to be out of the way. Perfect. Now all he needed were Lainey and the children. He stood in his pristine outfit and shiny shoes and flicked his wand absently, banishing dust from the edge of his robes from his walk outside.

AmosRomulus · 12-19-2007, 04:59 AM

"Shhh... it's alright..." *He kissed the top of her head and held her close. He smiled glad to be near her.* "I couldn't stay mad at you even if I trired. It is forgotten in my mind."

NannyMcPhee · 12-19-2007, 05:05 AM

With her arms still wrapped around him, Kate looked up to see his smile, and felt more at east with every passing minute. It was all going to work out for the best. She was happy with Amos, and knew she would be, no matter what.

Still -- she felt slightly distressed. "I shouldn't be forgiven so easily--" she whispered.

AmosRomulus · 12-19-2007, 05:10 AM

"Why not? We have all done wrong. Anything this is more then a second chance." *What he didn't say was that his trust was still hurt. It would take time but he could not trust her as he did before. He smiled and put a hand to her cheek.*

NannyMcPhee · 12-19-2007, 05:14 AM

She looked up at him, her eyes still wide, in an attempt to analyze his tone and his features. "It's not going to be the same, is it?" she asked quietly. "Our relationship, let alone our friendship. I've made a mess of everything --"

AmosRomulus · 12-19-2007, 05:20 AM

"I wouldn't say a mess, maybe a small one if that."
*He sighed and frowned a little.*
"But no, it wont be the same for awhile I wont lie to you."
*He looked at her as though he was scared she might fade away.*
"But I will let things heal. Wounds don't stay wounds, everything must heal sooner or later."

NannyMcPhee · 12-19-2007, 05:34 AM

Kate sighed and looked down at the ground. "I shouldn't have put those wounds there in the first place," she mumbled. She really had made a mess of everything. It was going to be hard for him to trust her completely for a while. Not that she blamed him for it, but she felt so horrible. How could she have hurt someone who'd done nothing but care for her unconditionally?

"I must have some psychotic disorder --" she mumbled once more.

AmosRomulus · 12-19-2007, 05:37 AM

"If you do then everyone has it." *He whispered as though it were a secret. He smiled and rubbed her cheek.* "It's alright... you said that you were sorry, I have forgiven you. Now you need to forgive yourself."

NannyMcPhee · 12-19-2007, 05:45 AM

Her eyes moved back up to his as he gently touched her cheek once more. It was a move that always made her melt and forget who she was for a few fleeting seconds.

Her worries returned with avengence of course. "How can I forgive myself when I caused you this pain, Amos? -- I saw the look in your eyes." She shuddered as it entered her mind once more. "I've never felt more like sucm in my life."

"I'm lower than scum. I'm the bacteria and feeds off the scum --"

AmosRomulus · 12-19-2007, 05:48 AM

"If you feel so much like scum I can take you to the lake, get a good cleaning." *He smiled warmly.* "You are not scum. To me you are perfect." *He kissed the top of her head again and rested his forehead on hers.*

SlytherinSistah · 12-19-2007, 06:06 AM

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Originally Posted by XanaSnape

Xana and Claudian had walked to the lake in companionable, if somewhat awkwad, silence... she was still trying to figure out the best way to approach this conversation... was even tempted to find a way out of it, really. But, sooner or later it had to be done, even though she knew that the outcome would be painful. Better just to get it over with.

"So. About tonight." She finally spoke. "You were right... originally I was very much looking forward to attending the dance with Josh. He's been a good friend to me... and I don't have many good friends here yet."

"But, you see..." She closed her eyes for a moment, summoning courage. "Merlin, I don't even know how to talk about this; I'm rubbish with this sort of thing."

"Well... For a long time, I've had... feelings... for someone. " she shook her head, her tone melancholy. "It's unrequited-- I'm not fool enough to think it would ever be mutual. We hardly know each other, and... I think he's already given his heart to someone else for good. But that doesn't stop me from feeling as I do. He is... everything I want; he is my whole heart. And... when I came into the common room, it really hit me that more than anything I wanted to be going to the dance with ... with him. Just him. I couldn't bear to attend any other way."

She paused and looked straight into the light green eyes she adored. "Does that make sense?"

Claudian upped the ante of attention paid to her when she claimed to be rubbish at this sort of thing. It made him very curious. He mulled through possible contenders for who this boy might be. "Are you sure you love him? I mean, as you said, you...hardly know each other?"
"It appears we've more in common than I thought, Xana. I'm going through something similar. But that's probably no surprise to you. Most people know it about me. Even those who I've never met. It's really quite embarrassing."

NannyMcPhee · 12-19-2007, 06:07 AM

Kate raised an eyebrow up at Amos. This was certainly no joking matter -- she was feeling utterly horrible about what she'd done to him and he felt the need for comic relief? Just like a boy --

But to him she's perfect. "Perfect?" she repeated quietly. No one ever held her quite as high as Amos. She didn't know how else to react -- it was something she wasn't used to.

Her eyes closed as she felt his lips on her forehead and then sighed. "You're too good for me, Amos --"

AmosRomulus · 12-19-2007, 06:12 AM

"I always saw it the other way around. If I thought you were scum I would not be with you... mostly because I am allgeric..." *He sighed and smiled down to her.*

NannyMcPhee · 12-19-2007, 06:15 AM

Kate made a face and huffed, rather exasperated by the whole thing, then threw her arms up in the air. "That's what I get for trying to be apologetic," she said pacing a few steps. "I feel terrible for something and my boyfriend feels the need to try out his career as a comic."

AmosRomulus · 12-19-2007, 06:19 AM

"I'm sorry. I was only trying to make you feel better." *He couldn't help but smile. She did look very cute when she is upset he thought. He held it in and put his hands on her shoulders.* "But as I said, you are forgiven. Alright?"

NannyMcPhee · 12-19-2007, 06:28 AM

She stopped pacing when she felt his arms on her shoulders, and looked up into his eyes. They were intense and sincere -- but at the same time, light-hearted.

She drew in a deep breath and nodded her head. "Alright," she said softly.

XanaSnape · 12-19-2007, 06:39 AM

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Originally Posted by SlytherinSistah

Claudian upped the ante of attention paid to her when she claimed to be rubbish at this sort of thing. It made him very curious. He mulled through possible contenders for who this boy might be. "Are you sure you love him? I mean, as you said, you...hardly know each other?"
"It appears we've more in common than I thought, Xana. I'm going through something similar. But that's probably no surprise to you. Most people know it about me. Even those who I've never met. It's really quite embarrassing."

Xana nodded once, still looking into those gooseberry green eyes. She could look at him forever, memorize every feature... "It appears we do-- I won't insult your intelligence by pretending I don't know of your situation. So... you can relate to how... difficult it is, to confess your deepest feelings."

"But yes. I'm absolutely certain. We don't know each other well right now, it's true. But... in my heart, I know. It's everything... every feature, every quirk of personality... cadence of speech... demeanor... the crooked smile with raised eyebrow thing-- that just knocks me out, it's almost unfair, you know-- " she laughed a little as her cheeks blushed pink, the confession completely unstoppable now, "and intelligence, wit, charisma, the sort of old fashioned courtliness... even the things that frustrate me are endearing... except for the whole 'ignoring my existence and loving someone else' part... that, not so much. But everything else -- everything -- yes. In love. No... I take that back. 'In love' sounds too temporary, something you can get back out of. This... this is more than that. Just... Love. Complete."

She blushed again and dropped her eyes, then met his again.

AmosRomulus · 12-19-2007, 06:47 AM

*He nodded and pulled her into a hug.* "Are you going to be ok?" *He looked down at her with a warm smile.*

SlytherinSistah · 12-19-2007, 08:07 AM

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Originally Posted by XanaSnape

Xana nodded once, still looking into those gooseberry green eyes. She could look at him forever, memorize every feature... "It appears we do-- I won't insult your intelligence by pretending I don't know of your situation. So... you can relate to how... difficult it is, to confess your deepest feelings."

"But yes. I'm absolutely certain. We don't know each other well right now, it's true. But... in my heart, I know. It's everything... every feature, every quirk of personality... cadence of speech... demeanor... the crooked smile with raised eyebrow thing-- that just knocks me out, it's almost unfair, you know-- " she laughed a little as her cheeks blushed pink, the confession completely unstoppable now, "and intelligence, wit, charisma, the sort of old fashioned courtliness... even the things that frustrate me are endearing... except for the whole 'ignoring my existence and loving someone else' part... that, not so much. But everything else -- everything -- yes. In love. No... I take that back. 'In love' sounds too temporary, something you can get back out of. This... this is more than that. Just... Love. Complete."

She blushed again and dropped her eyes, then met his again.

Claudian listened carefully and patiently to every word of Xana's. When she got to the part about how her love ignored her he shook his head disapprovingly.
"Despicable." Was all he whispered of the damnedable situation they were both in.

"Does he know your feelings for him, Xana? You can't be all that invisible. Not a mover and shaker as you are! Least of all not with this hair!" He said smiling and moving a strand of it away from her face which he noticed was abnormally colourful. He put the back of it against her forehead. "You keep getting a little warm. You're like an ember. Glowing and dimming intermittently. That's not healthy." He spoke with genuine concern. "Do you want me to take you to the nurse? At least get you out of this cold? Here." He removed his robe and tossed it on her practically drowning her in it. He immediately realized that it was done a bit carelessly. Forgetful of his force, sometimes. Thank goodness it was only a robe and not a text or anything that might've actually hurt her.

XanaSnape · 12-19-2007, 08:26 AM

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Originally Posted by SlytherinSistah

Claudian listened carefully and patiently to every word of Xana's. Perhaps it wasn't Alex. When she got to the part about how her love ignored her he shook his head disapprovingly.
"Despicable." Was all he whispered of the damnedable situation they were both in.

"Does he know your feelings for him, Xana? You can't be all that invisible. Not a mover and shaker as you are! Least of all not with this hair!" He said smiling and moving a strand of it away from her face which he noticed was abnormally colourful. He put the back of it against her forehead. "You keep getting a little warm. You're like an ember. Glowing and dimming intermittently. That's not healthy." He spoke with genuine concern. "Do you want me to take you to the nurse? At least get you out of this cold? Here." He removed his robe and tossed it on her practically drowning her in it. He immediately realized that it was done a bit carelessly. Forgetful of his force, sometimes. Thank goodness it was only a robe and not a text or anything that might've actually hurt her.

"Thank you... Just a little embarrassed, I suppose. But I'm fine." she said in a whisper, accepting his robe. "Better than fine, in fact... You're so kind. How is it that you're so kind?" She looked into his eyes, her voice filled with wonder and awe... as though she were gazing upon the heavens for the first time. She closed her eyes and lowered her head a moment, then laughed gently.

"And yes... He does know how I feel... at least he does, if he was listening just a moment ago." She looked at him directly, her meaning clear. "Were you listening?" She paused, her sapphire eyes fixed on his green ones. "Do you know?"

SlytherinSistah · 12-19-2007, 08:53 AM

Claudian had heard people call him kind before, but none had ever asked him why. He never gave it much thought.
"Oh, I..d'erm...I...I don't know. I just gave you my robe is all. I don't want you to be ill." He said trying to recover. An infinite windbag, he never stuttered!

A long silence passed in which Claudian's expression twisted through an emotional spectrum of feelings as he realized what she was saying. Joy. Doubt. Sorrow. Relief. Fear. Impressed. Cocky. Shock. They ceased as he gathered himself up again. A calm but concerned expression now on his face.

"Yes, I was. Yes, I do." He backed away and found a boulder rock to sit upon and scooted to the side a bit inviting her to sit near him as well. He felt like someone had stolen all but the thinnest of his air. He was not used to being...loved. "Xana?"

XanaSnape · 12-19-2007, 08:59 AM

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Originally Posted by SlytherinSistah

Claudian had heard people call him kind before, but none had ever asked him why. He never gave it much thought.
"Oh, I..d'erm...I...I don't know. I just gave you my robe is all. I don't want you to be ill." He said trying to recover. An infinite windbag, he never stuttered!

A long silence passed in which Claudian's expression twisted through an emotional spectrum of feelings as he realized what she was saying. Joy. Doubt. Sorrow. Relief. Fear. Impressed. Cocky. Shock. They ceased as he gathered himself up again. A calm but concerned expression now on his face.

"Yes, I was. Yes, I do." He backed away and found a boulder rock to sit upon and scooted to the side a bit inviting her to sit near him as well. He felt like someone had stolen all but the thinnest of his air. He was not used to being...loved. "Xana?"

Xana came and sat gently beside him. Here it comes.... she thought. Well... you knew what the outcome would be; you knew this was a fool's errand. At least you've spoken your heart. At least you've been true.

"Yes, Claudian...?" she said softly.

SlytherinSistah · 12-19-2007, 09:37 AM

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Originally Posted by XanaSnape

Xana came and sat gently beside him. Here it comes.... she thought. Well... you knew what the outcome would be; you knew this was a fool's errand. At least you've spoken your heart. At least you've been true.

"Yes, Claudian...?" she said softly.

Claudian helped Xana onto the large rock and felt a twinge of emptiness attack him for no apparent reason. Not for or by Xana. It was like something had packed up it's bags and left his heart, leaving a vacancy where it once had been. He'd be horrified later to find what it was, but the heart, like any muscle grows weary. It was getting harder to live a lie, getting harder to justify!

"What ought we do?" He was at a loss.

XanaSnape · 12-19-2007, 09:43 AM

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Originally Posted by SlytherinSistah

Claudian helped Xana onto the large rock and felt a twinge of emptiness attack him for no apparent reason. Not for or by Xana. It was like something had packed up it's bags and left his heart, leaving a vacancy where it once had been. He'd be horrified later to find what it was, but the heart, like any muscle grows weary. It was getting harder to live a lie, getting harder to justify!

"What ought we do?" He was at a loss.

"Well... it all depends on how you feel. You know where I stand." she smiled a little, shyly. "I know I've probably said too much... it's a lot to lay on a person. I just... wanted to be completely honest with you. "

She sat quietly beside him for a few moments. "I'll understand... if you don't feel the same for me, or don't see any potential for... anything... between us. I will understand. But if you do... if it's something you might want, too..." she looked up at him, hope in her eyes.

SlytherinSistah · 12-19-2007, 11:01 AM

He broke from his worry-laden expression to give her a weak smile. He'd never accuse her of dishonesty. He sniffed once.

"Potential is not in question. It's the energy to see that potential through to it's fruition." He tried to find words to describe the Angkor Wat-like ruin site that was once his heart. Stone, crumpled for negligence, overgrown with strangulating creepers winding around it and suffocating the messages inscribed. A monument built to accompany ceremony that could no longer take place there due to the bad shape it now stood in. "You know." 'What it's like to carry a torch that burns your own hands.' "That I can't do this." Slughorn's eyes looked watery. He was washing his shoes in the Sahara. He knew it. And the waste of something was always a terrible loss, no matter who was on what side of it. "I just can't. I'm sorry, Xana." He felt like crying, but he couldn't do that either.

XanaSnape · 12-19-2007, 11:17 AM

She bowed her head slowly and sat in silence for an interminable amount of time, her eyes closed... she was filled with a sorrow so complete and deep, it was as if he had carved her very soul out with a blunt tool.

You could. If you wanted to. If you wanted me. I could help you to find a way. She wanted to speak, to fight for it, to fight for a chance. But he didn't want her. She had known it would end like this. At least she had spoken in truth. So why did it have to hurt so much?

Finally, her voice worked. A little.

"I wish I could say something to change your mind. " she whispered, unable to do more, knowing she would cry if she did. "Thank you for listening. And.. for being... kind."

She sat a moment longer, unable to look at him. "I should go."

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