To you,

I propped open your pages and I miss my cousin… I miss the good old days wherein I was only a first year. I miss everything that had passed. How I wish I could just turn back time. You reminded me of so much and you have remained closed since Spence left.

I’m on my fifth year now and I still have 2 years to go before I leave Hogwarts. You missed all the details about my fourth year however the good ones have been kept inside my heart and mind and they are still clear until now.

I’ll begin another chapter from this one yet I’m still the same person from before. I have muggle parents… I am actually a real pure blood… I have a sister… I have a best friend… I attend classes… I work on home works… I talk to anyone I want… I wander.

I am just like any other girl (magical girl to be exact… *grins*)

I am just me.

Vivianne. (who is called Via and Miss Nat)

*winks*

Here’s a poem I wrote as I wandered down the lake. I’m glad I could still remember it despite the fact that my memory isn’t that good… t’was declining as I age… haha..


A heart

I wonder why we are connected
We are so different yet related
An illusion created
A heart that is untainted

It was all in my mind
I have been dreaming of you to find
It was once lost
Now it’s back and I don’t know its cost.

~Vivianne

To you,

you see, it's been a long while since i haven't had a best friend. And last term i found one... Daisy.

I want you to meet her... the only girl in Hogwarts who can make me do things i have never done before... i mean.. i can be myself when i'm with her.. we scream together and we do silly things together...

At the start of term banquet she had revealed something to me... Something which had made me afraid of what really lies inside Hogwarts. Not the chamber of secrets... everyone knows that... but the secrets of the people living inside this magnificent castle... no.

we again have another new teacher... imagine having astronomy class in the middle of the day when all you can see is the Sun... obviously it's a star. but what about the others? I wonder how long things will stay this way... The former Astronomy professor, Professor Forrester... or should i say... the late...

i don't know what i would do if ever some student out there get their hands on you - probably except for Daisy... of course her secrets are my secrets...

Daisy told me that Professor Forrester was killed.. he didn't left for a long vacation or something... he's gone.. and i've been keeping that thing since then... i wonder if other students know it.. My bestfriend told me the name of the girl who saw the scene... S... her name starts with S... Sarah...

how many Sarah are out here at Hogwarts? But as far as i know... she's a huffie...

Ooopsies... have to go... Someone's coming and i'm not comfortable writing stuffs when someone's around..

Vivianne

To you,

i was doing my usual wandering...that's what i do, right? when i passed by a familiar face at the Barnabas the Barmy portrait at the seventh floor....

She's a Ravenclaw... a friend of mine actually.. i guess deep inside she once was hated by me... that was just then... long ago, when she fell in love with the man i like. To tell you the truth, it wasn't her fault she felt something like that... oh now what, i'm defending her?

Silly me!!!? my conscience and evil sides are fighting... Stops them

okay...OKAy!.. back to topic. I haven't introduced her yet, have I?
Her name's Rachelle... such a lovely name wasn't it? yeah

So... where was i?
Oh yeah... Rachelle was sitting at the stone cold floor leaning on the wall having deep thoughts about something i don't know... It wasn't my job to know it actually although i tried my best to ask her... she was just hesitant to tell me. And i think if i was in her place i'd do the same thing...

I wonder how was she and Reid nowadays... Hmmm???! i hope both of them are doing great... and they're happy together.

Hush... i'm off...

~Vivianne

To you,

wasn't it boring to be always addressing to you when in fact you aren't responding. How odd!!! I just came from an exhausting game of getting lost and finding your way out from the maze down at the grounds...Glad i wasn't really alone after all as i thread the corn stalk fields. Haha... I don't have any allergic to stuffs so i could enjoy the wonders this place brings although sometimes it's not pure wonder.

Down there i met Lyra... a slytherin..Ooops i forgot to ask what year she's on. I'll ask her some other time then Adrienne... a Ravenclaw. She's such a nice girl.I'd love to spend some time with her again. You get to laugh about her jokes and stuffs. Wish you could meet her, am i insane? wishing you... just a mere notebook to meet a friend of mine?

By the way, ADrienne and LIvvy (yes she was there) tried out for the Ravenclaw quidditch team and i hope they both get on the team... I know they deserve to be in it.. So what else should i tell you? Hmmmm...

There more things but as of now... homework started to pile up and i just wish you could help me... poor me.. I wish i could see Daisy around now... i wonder what she's up to again.

So..Ciao!!!


~Vivianne

To you,

it's been a busy day today... Yeah it was. I've done another homework and i don't even know if i did it right. But that's why you work on it for it to be checked...

Btw, it's hogsmeade day today that's why it's a busy day... The fun made it a busy one...

Stomp stomp stomp...
Hogsmeade is always damp...
I was prancing along
humming a song
Wondering down the Hogsmeade lawn.
Wishing someone would hear me and join.
...And the story went from my short little poem...


Since it's always freezing during hogsmeade weekends... snowy... a jumper made my day. GLoves either. And i was actually alone again but not too soon coz i heard a loud voice coming from the owl post down the small snowy town... not too many students had visited the town unlike the past years. To my surprise it was Dear Daisy of Mine... Mah bestfriend... she's frantic because Houdini... yes.. Houdini the rat we both at the pet shop back in diagon alley...

they somehow misplaced his cage... which ended up lost.. and that what made Daisy mad and sad. Glad that my jokes had somehow cracked her sadness and at least she had smiled.

I don't wanna think about wrinkles and such but then... if its the only way to make her face brilliant and gay. Forgive me for including the old woman who sells treats on the train... i didn't mean to set her as an example for the wrinkles thing... peace

I dragged her into Honeydukes... my refuge during cold times.. i bury myself with treats... but no no... no getting fat... i'm afraaaid of it

hmmm.... chocolate frogs... they're my favourite treat and Daisy showed me some truffles... yummeh... Dark chocolate... we both grabbed our own choices... not to mention Diasy grab one blood pop... faints ewww.... i don't wanna taste those lollipops.... Lollipops are supposed to be a treat for kids but then... it's scary... well for me.

i promised Daisy i'll be paying for all the treats and i did... to uplift her spirit.. and i promised her that i'll lend her Slumber's cage in replacement for Houdini's lost one.... although the holes are big.... we'll manage

We ended up running away from someone at Honeydukes before we could even pay... Remember Daisy's hero? probably not haha... the Ravenclaw boy who had reacted soooo much about a cat pee back at the sandbox last year.

Daisy's afraid of him... but he didn't see us and instead he just said bless you when Daisy sneezed... which is why i ended up laughing...

And so i have told you sooo mucho... i must go again...


~vivianne

To you,

Gryffindor's in last place. Yeah, the mighty Lion's seemed to be like settling down again like the past years... LAst year seemed to be a great one when we ended up second. But I just saw the housepoints and SHAME...!!!

Gryffindor's down at the bottom... and we've got a lot of points to catch up on the other houses... I still have to turn in my Muggle studies, COMC, Herbology and Hom homework... That's a lot...

BUT... i'd have to keep up to atleast help...

Professor DUmont, the Head of House had set up a meeting for ALL GRYFFIES... yeah and me and Daisy attended... It's about the students being too lazy to somewhat appear in class and submit stuffs..

Anyways... Natalia, yes finally, she had sent me a letter checking me out... not just that but she had sent me a camera... CooL ISN't it? I can take pictures of everything now... WEEEeh...

and so now baiii... I'll go take pictures....
wavy wavy...


~Vivianne

To you,

Well... well... well... nothing much to say... just wanna say, i got 8 points out of 10 from the first Transfiguration homework... Not bad... but i could have deserved more right? I must have not explained myself better... yeah.. laziness must have struck me the time i was writing it and so i cut it short

ohhhh!!! i have something to show you... wait i couldn't find it... really... it was our picture... Me and Daisy... the first photo from the polaroid camera Natalia have sent me... it's a muggle thing..i mean style so it isn't moving.. but hey, i laikk it... yes.. it's lovely..

i'll go find it so you can see it... be back...

~Vivianne

To you,

Now... I still haven't found it. looks inside mah brain
I could not remember where i have placed it...

but heyah, i just received the results of mah homework for DADA and Muggle studies.

EEEeeep... bounces i got 8 points with DADA... not bad, wasn't really good with it... but that's high for meh already....

and and... Muggle Studies is the best... i know i was raised a muggle and that didn't made a difference about the homework... i found it hard but Professor Dumont gave me 20 points for it... that's laikkk a perfect score... was it? oh noes hahaha...

so i'ma go continue look for the picture...


~Vivianne

To You,

hey... hey... i'am actually jumping right now even though i'm here alone at the grounds... of course i always carry you around, i have my bag with me.. i just thought the ambiance down here's better than up the seventh floor... so you could see other places rather than being kept inside my bag and underneath my pillow.

yes... haha why am i jumping??? cause i've found the picture... i found it under Houdini's... nah.. slumber's cage...you know my cuddly CHuBBBy and SNOWY cat Daisy borrowed it but the holes were too big for her grasshopper mouse and so she returned it already. i wonder where she got a new cage though...

So so enough for That... it's here.. i'm holding it i took this at the great hall when i went there and i found Daisy chatting to a firstieeee... I knew it bored her talking about fruits and stuffsss...

She told me she had been doing some sort of project about GILLYWEEDS... SLIMy Thingy... gross -yeah and smelly oh she had been working at the greenhouse alone.. see she can survive all by herself... maybe i should check mah little niffler either... CID.. i miss him so much. yeah i own a niffler.. given to me by Professor Morgan to take care of when i was on my third yearI haven't been able to go down there and visit him at the Magical Creatures Sanctuary that she had created.

coz it was just that he reminded me of Reid... and i haven't spoken to him for so long. Cid liked him, he felt comfortable when Reid is around

now... i'm taking so long i know you're excited to see Daisy... why in the world can't i see your eyes? TeeeHEee

i'm going to paste it here... so you don't have to worry about anything...

just wait a minute as a i search my bag for the muggle scotch tape.. i think it looks better




there... Daisy's a little whiter than me...nods plus the flash got her haha.. i actually hate flashes.... she wasn't really aware that's why i was laughing... see, she looked SO SERIIIOOOUSS...


~Vivianne

To you,

I don't have much to say today. and i don't have a picture... I just wanna write. Yeah. I just wanna share the ode i wrote for the first Astronomy homework for Professor Borr.

I chose to write an Ode for Professor Morgan. well, she is my favourite teacher. Although i'm not really active in her classes. Professor Morgan is a former Gryffindor.

Ode to Iliana Morgan

I-nexplicable beauty she possess
L-oyal to those whom she really cares
I-maginative mind with billions of thoughts
A-ura of great being she humbly resembles
N-urturing young minds with her adventurous ideas
A-doring and approachable she is to everyone

M-ore than herself she gives significance to others
O-ffers her all in every lesson she sets for youngsters
R-eigns in her heart the joy she wants to share
G-rateful we should be ‘cause a woman like her exists
A-nother world without her smile is bleak
N-aturally she proudly shows, Iliana Morgan in every way we see

I still don't know how much point i got with that homework plus the ten professions better than a LAZY STARGAZER. I don't think being a star gazer makes you a lazy one... do you?

It's lovely to stare at the stars and feel your worth that in a world like this you exist, right?


~Vivianne

To you,

Forgive me for being so busy.But i COULDN'T helpit,okay.That's how life works... how HOGWARTS life works.

It's been a few days ago when i was alone standing at the moving staircase at the third floor staring at the portraits hanging on the wall when someone almost made me fall.

Yes!!! -although i've already fallen with him before. It was Reid. He surprised me when he laid his hand on my shoulder, naooo who wouldn't shudder? and get the creepy feeling that you were being played at when you weren't actually aware about it...to think that i'm just standing on a few flight of stairs.

so enough...enough... it's been so long since i last talked to him.Laikkk a year. Could you imagine that??? I could not believe what had kept me from not talking to him. And seeing him again made me miss him. Although he hadn't changed one bit...he told me he liked the way he was... i like it either so he doesn't have to change.

So he told me stuffs about his summer... how he had spent it producing their movie... what was the title again????

OH yeah... THE UNHOLY...
i might ask dad to have a copy of that movie.

OH,and he told me that he had invited Rachel and LIvvy to spend the summer with her... How... how wonderful. However.. things didn't end up right... and it went worst i think. Reid and Rachel somehow broke up because of LIvvy... i never thought LIvvy could do that thing and someone named Sienna.

Reid said Livvy didn't laikk him even before. But when i saw LIvvy down at the grounds it was as if nothing had happened. Hmmm...

Why do i have to do something everytime i'm enjoying my time writing stuffs on you?
see yah later..

~Vivianne

To you,

So my fifth year term had ended again and my sixth year just started. The last term wasn't as fun as it should be since i've been feeling you know... bitter over things.

Before i jump into things that had happened during the summer, i wanna share thing from last term. Reid graduated already and i hadn't properly said goodbye. Gahhh, i've been so pre occupied with things. SEE, i even barely wrote on you.

And now even though we never had a conversation and we might never had one, someone took this photo of us. YES!!! us. COol isn't it.

HEre..



At least i managed to have this before we lost contact and everything.

NOw, moving on with my summer. It was a very VERY lovely one. Natalia organised a camping trip and my muggle and wizard parents finally met. You know how it looks like when two different world meet plus the fact that my wizard mum bawl over how grateful they are for my muggle parents. It took hours for us to stop her from crying.

Natalia bakes the most tasty brownies i've ever had. She packed hundreds of them on a plastic ware. We didn't have anything to eat except for that, it was all unplanned. So we ha to do the traditional way of hunting and roasting over fire. It was all so fun. I was teary eyed when we had to pack up the next day because of work and i till have to get my things on DIagon alley.

I spent most of my days strolling on Diagon alley. And there i met him. I met the guy that maybe i have been waiting for. His name is Alexander Uhmmm. Uh oh.. haha, i didn't even ask his last name. All i know is his nickname Alex. Never mind. HE's gorgeous. HE's from Korea and i just felt we had spark. Does a person who is inlove really know if they have spark? i dunno. ^^

So how i met him???? I met him when i bumped unto him at SOuth end street at the Alley. Then i seemed to melt when he looked at me and i kept on blushing.. OH he blushed too. What does that mean eh??? Then we thought about going to Florean's for a little get to know and you know what???? The next thing i know is that HE WAS ALREADY HOLDING MY HAND. giggles

We didn't manage to talk about a lot of stuffs for i had to leave and the next time i went back we didn't meet again. sigh perhaps that's a sign i'm never meeting him again. I hope not... i can feel it that he's the one and i know that he feels the same way. ALl i know now is that he got sorted into Slytherin. What a coincidence, the same house as Reid.

His image was still Vivid as if i'm still having that conversation with him at FLoreans. HE looks o cute eating his ice cream... like a little kid who just really wants to eat and is not minding the people around him. BErtiebott's flavour is one of the flavours he ordered. i actually let him order And he got 3 flavours i just couldn't remember the other two flavours.

Oh i have to go now. Talk to you soon.

~Vivianne Nat

Last update: 01-10-2010

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dear diary,

i finally managed to get you out of my Hogwarts stuff. and you have been stuck underneath that trunk for like 2 or 3 years now... now look at you, you are still new just like before, untouched and still filled with lots of pages to write on..

i miss writing to you. and the last time i wrote one on you was on the beginning of my sixth year. that is just horrible isn't it... but now don't worry, i'll update you as soon as i can everyday.. and i will tell you all my thoughts for that day, or probably just scribble random thoughts about my life now or before i even left Hogwarts.

hooo.. i miss the walls of hogwarts, i miss the castle, the grounds, my common room and my bed... especially my friends. i was supposed to work at the ministry but then i thought i'll spend a little more time with my wizard parents before i leave again. it has been a year since i have been staying here in chicago. and i still get to visit my muggle parents in Halesworth during the weekend.. so that is like 4 times or 3 times a month? Teehee..

mum is bugging me to sleep now..i should head to bed. yeah, to her i am always a little girl..

PS: i'm here in Chicago... ^^ i'll clear things about Alex soon..

~Vivianne

Last update 12/10/10