To Say Goodbye - Sa9+
 

To Say Goodbye

Written By DesDiamondS
DestinyDiamondS@aol.com
Rating: Sa9+

Disclaimer: Not mine! Just borrowing the wonderful characters created by JK Rowling...

Hello All! Well this is my first fanfiction and its about my favorite non-canon couple, although if I told you who it was it would take away from some of the interesting aspects of my story. This is a one-shot so the mods should move it to the finished stories after a while. Thanks to Daniela for reading this and giving me her feedback, and a big hug to Molly for beta reading it! I hope you guys will give me some feedback too! Enjoy!

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To Say Goodbye

She is running down the staircase when I find her, her long brown hair flowing wildly behind her. I can hear the soft click of her heels and her nervous breathing. Reaching the bottom step, she stops and turns to stare into the darkness surrounding her. She crouches and rounds the staircase to hide behind its’ tall pillars. I chuckle to myself at her cautiousness as she tiptoes towards the stone stairs that lead to the dungeons. Torches placed along the walls, their flames licking and dancing seductively against the darkness, dimly light the staircase. As she reaches the stone floor of the main dungeons, she turns right; I descend after her. She heads for our usual meeting place near the entrance to the kitchens but I stop at the sound of another set of footsteps. It seems that she too has heard them and becomes even more nervous, pulling at the long sleeves of her shirt as though to hide her hands. Suddenly, there is the loud noise of a door slamming; she jumps at the sound, panicking with what it could mean. My own heart begins to race when I consider what could happen if she is caught down here. Before I can reveal myself to her, she breaks into a dead run, changing course and heading into a pitch-black corridor. Worried for
her safety, I begin to run after her.

"Lumos," I mutter as I pull my wand from my robes. Its tip illuminates with white light and I can finally make out what I'm walking into. It's apparent that this corridor hasn't been used in a long time by the considerable amount of dirt and dust in the air and on the ground.

"Where could she have gotten to?” I wonder while searching for her, each minute reaching deeper into the darkness. It is then that I notice that I have come to a small round room, surrounded by statues of different creatures standing like guards against the walls. I hear the sound of ragged breathing and I deduce that it was coming from somewhere to my left. As I turn, I see a statue of a beautiful mermaid; between it and the wall I see a head of wild brown hair. I approach slowly; her back is to me and her breathing is becoming faster, shallower. When I am finally a few inches
from her, I reach out and touch her shoulder. She gasps with surprise and turns to face me, her round, brown eyes wild with terror.

"Draco!” she sighs with relief and closes her eyes, bringing a shaking hand up to her heaving chest, "You scared me out of my wits”.

"I'm sorry," I offer simply, stroking her cheek with my hand. She blushes nervously, looking uncomfortable.

"Why did you slam the door like that? Do you want us to get caught?"

"I didn't slam that door.” I answer.

"Then who do you think did?” as she looks behind me with suspicion.

"Does it matter?” I whisper, stepping closer to her. I can feel her chest pressed against mine, her lips inches away from my own. Her eyes enchant me but I note the hint of sadness that lie behind them.

“Yes”, she answers softly, “It does." She pushes me away so that our bodies separate. Reality sets in once again. Memories of the past year come flooding back, her last letter surfaces to the forefront of my mind.

“ ‘It’s time that we say goodbye.’ ” I quote stoically as a tear rolls down her cheek.

"I- I had to - we can't continue to do this, Draco." she says miserably.

"Do what?” I demand.

"What we've been doing for the past year, these secret rendezvous in the middle of the night, the lying-"

"The love making?” I interrupt.

"We are taking too many risks," she says, as if trying to justify her reasons, pushing me away again. My wand falls to the floor at our feet as I take hold of her shoulders, pulling her to me.

"These 'risks' are all I have left. You of all people should know that."

"We're playing a game we can't win, Draco. Sooner or later, things will catch up with us and it will be too late, the damage will be… irreparable."

"I'm not playing any games; I stopped playing games a long time ago. Do you think this past year has been a game to me?” I hiss, "My mother and father being murdered because of me...was that a game?"

"Draco, be fair to yourself," she pleads, laying her head on my shoulder, holding me. "You aren't responsible for the death of your parents; the Death Eaters have been trying to manipulate
you."

"I’m a Death Eater."

She looks at me and points a slender and severe finger at me.* "You are not a Death Eater."

"I’m marked as one of them.” I growl.

"I don't care what bloody symbols are burned into your flesh. Time and time again you have proven yourself to be loyal to the Order and its cause-"

"They'll always look at me and see what I was, what my father was.* Don't you understand?*I have nothing left to lose, nothing left to live for…but you.” I run my hands through her hair and close my eyes, breathing in her soft scent.

"You can't live for other people anymore, Draco." She pulls away from our embrace and smiles sadly, kissing me lightly on the cheek, "There is so much out there waiting for you, and you don't even know it”.

"Are you afraid of the upcoming battles?” I ask suddenly, coldly.

At first, she seems confused by this question; she scrunches up her eyebrows but then shakes her head sadly. "My decision has nothing to do with the war."

"I don't believe that. If it hadn't been for this god forsaken war, things would have been easier for us.” I declare.

"I’ll have to disagree with you on that," she laughs darkly. “Had it not been for this war, you would have continued being an arrogant Malfoy heir, and in your eyes, I still would have been a dirty little Mudblood."

I grimace at her words but know that they are true. Had it not been for the dark times surrounding us, I never would have opened my eyes to see the beautiful woman in front of me.

"Then why end it?” I ask desperately. She raises her eyes to look at me but decides against it and instead opting to analyze the stone figure next to us.

"Because this isn't real," she whispers miserably, clutching a statue for support. "We let ourselves get caught up in the moment, the circumstances..."

"How can you tell me that this isn't real, that what I feel isn't valid?" I ask hoarsely, my heart in my throat.

She stops and breaths deeply, shaking her head and biting her lip all while the tears flow down her cheeks. She finally looks me in the eye and with great pain explains,

"I love him, Draco."

The silence that follows her words is suffocating. Stunned at first I could only laugh at myself, seeing the torment in her eyes. I feel a fire rise within me that renews my angry spirit.

"So this is how it ends? Standing in the dark, hiding behind a mermaid, while you profess your love for some *** who doesn't see you, doesn’t know you the way that I do?"

"Draco-"

"I would have died for you!” I roar, throwing all caution to the wind. I drop to my knees and hold my hands up as if in prayer before my crying goddess. She takes my head and holds it against her. Wrapping her arms around me protectively, she kisses my hair, sobbing quietly.

"I would have given up everything had you asked me to." I whisper to her repeatedly, hoping that the floor below me would open and swallow me, leaving me only with the memory of being held by my beloved. We stay in this embrace until neither of us has tears left to cry. My heart aches as she finally releases me and extends her hand to help me up from the floor. I memorize the feeling of her hand in mine, knowing it would be the last time I would ever be able to touch her.

"I leave for the Order headquarters tomorrow night,” she says finally, staring down the corridor from which we came some time earlier. She pulls out her wand, igniting it, bathing us in white light.

"Then I still have a few hours left before we really have to say goodbye.” I brush a stray strand of hair from her face. I smile weakly, but the smile doesn't reach my eyes, and she notices this.

"I'm sorry," she says sorrowfully.

"Don't be.” I shake my head, "You have given me more than I can ever thank you for.” I kiss her tenderly on her forehead, my heart breaking as I begin my walk back through the dark hallway. After only a few feet, I realize that I don't hear the clicking of her footsteps behind me. I look back, but it's too late.

Hermione is already gone.

:End:

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I hope you enjoyed it! Feedback welcome!


Des

~*FIRST TO POST-W00T*~
omg , this is soooooo good! the best ever! i love it! my new fave! i worship this...lol! love it, keep up the tops werk!

xx

Liz

oh no - ur not posting any more? pleeeeease change ur mind and post more, u hav sumthing great here!

Oh...I knew it....I knew it was Hermione!!! That was sooooo amazing, you write so well....awesome!!!

But little question....Hermione says she loves 'him', someone other than Draco....who is 'he'???? Is it Harry...is it Ron...who???

I really do love your style, hope you decide to write more fics....

Jessica

Thank You!!!
 

Lol *blush* well thank you so very much! I'm glad you enjoyed it! Thanks for reading!


Lol no I'm not posting anymore, this is a stand alone story, although it easily could be turned into a chaptered story...I don't know, it seems that everytime I try to write something it turns into a huge epic I never finish! Why don't we just take baby steps and see what happens?

Thanks for the compliment! lol, I'm glad you were able to figure out who it was, I was wondering if anyone would...

Hermione does say 'him' and I didn't reveal the identity of this person on purpose. I like leaving that question for the reader to wonder about. lol

Thanks again for your wonderful comments! You have inspired me to continue writing fanfiction!

Love,

Des

Very good! But I sincerely hope you don't end it here.

wow. AH-Mazing.

ur so welcome! like, its the truth! this is soo much better than my fic, and heaps of ppl like my ff, so urs is gonna b overflowing with posts soon! Ooh ok well if you dont continue this story the u HAVE to write more ff'S!!!! plz patoid!!! (post another thread or i die - made this up just now! lol)

XxoXXXoOxOxOxoXoOxooxOXo

Liz

That was AWESOME!!!! I love it!!! You have to write more!!!!

Awesome!!! I love it! Please post more!!

I agree with everyone here! This is an amazing fic, and you have to continue it!! or write another if you want to leave this as a oneshot, but it's really very well written!
post!!
~bettina

That was so cool i'd like if you'd post more its a very good story

I love your style of wrighting its amazing
PAMS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hi everyone!

Thanks again for you wonderful comments but I stand by my decision, this will be a one shot. Of course this could change at anytime in the future since I'm such a silly little rabbit....lol. But don't get discouraged, I was so happy to hear from so many people that I will try my hardest to write more fanfiction for you guys to enjoy!

Thank you again and I'll see you around!

Des

WOW!! It's so sweet!! I love it!! Poor Draco....I will love you if you want...lol
It's awesome.....great ff.....i can't wait to read ur future ff's!!

oh please! i really want to know who it is!!!! plz say RON!! hehe!! DONT LET THIS END!!!(just tell us who it is.. :lol: )
i love this, my first D/hr that i like, cuz she loves someone else!! sorry hate him (Ferret boy) PAMS!!!

That was good, I first I thought it was Ginny, but Hermione's even better, and putting it in first person...that's really rare, Great Job

That was really good! You are such a good writer! But I agree...........you need to leave this as a one shot! But think about doing other Fan Fics in the future!!!!!!!!! You have a great style and I think you had something going here..........but I would leave it a one shot! I will be looking for Fics by you soon!!!!!!!!!
~!Allie!~

Well thanks once again for your thoughts! lol. I'm surprised by all the Harry hating that's going on.

Lol...Oh well, we all ship different things don't we?

*trying to avoid an all out shipping war*

Just posting to say hi and to let you know that I've posted the beta read version of the story for your enjoyment. I know its really silly that I had it beta read after it was posted but no worries, there are not many changes, mostly grammatical errors and things like that.

Oh and I'm in the process of writing my second fic, and funny enough, it seems to have a link to this one *shocked* Hopefully I will be done with it soon so that all you guys can enjoy it!

Thanks for the support!


Des

yeah! i will read it, just give me the title!

Great story!!! It's awesome and well written and very interesting!!! I love it, and i can't wait to read your second FF!! I was just wondering though, at the end it said Hermione was gone, where did she go?

great!!NEW READER HERE.......LOVE IT ALOT...
WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO POST THE NEW POST? :) :) :) :) :) :)

:one_brow:
Hunny, this was a one shot, there won't be a new post. There will be a new story though, at least, the author said it was under way....I hope so....