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Makani · 04-04-2005, 12:23 AM

I've never gotten along with my family. One night, this flowed out through my pen onto paper. A bit angsty, but it's only a portion of what I felt and still feel.

Too Heartless To Care

'What's wrong?'
What a stupid question to ask me
When is something not wrong?
Honestly
You ask such stupid questions
Maybe if you were to actually listen to me
You might get a hint of what's wrong
But we've already established that you don't listen
And you don't care
So why bother trying to act?
I see through your mask
You can't fool me

It seems everyone in this family is deaf
We never listen to each other
And ask stupid questions
That should be a sign
A sign that tells us 'what's wrong'
One of these generations needs to change things
Why not this one?
Because I'm too cold and heartless to care
That's why
Or so everyone thinks

How little you all know.

Leeness · 04-04-2005, 02:21 PM

sorry i haven't read in a while, i totally forgot abouty the poems

anywayz i am here now, great updates Trixie! PAMs and BUMPS

Makani · 04-04-2005, 09:08 PM

Thanks Lee.

And there's no need to apologize! I hope I haven't made you feel obligated to read. <.< Read only if you wish!

Leeness · 04-04-2005, 09:14 PM

well i wish so i shall

Makani · 04-07-2005, 09:42 PM

It's been three months since an accident has taken place in my life. I've been in denial for so long of what had happened ... I wrote this after realizing my lies weren't the truth.

Goodbye, My Love

So alone
An echo in my heart
To live eternity in solitude
Untouched, unloved

Why did you leave me?
I wasn't ready to be alone
I wasn't ready to say good-bye
Why did you leave me?!

I cried an ocean that night
The tears flowed like a never ending river
I missed you and hated you
How could you have done such a thing?!

We made a promise to each other
We planned out our futures
We had dreams!
Why, oh god, why did you leave me?

You inspired me to write
You held me when the world was cruel
You were always there
Loving me so tenderly

One night, one bloody night
And you've disappeared
Never saying good-bye
Never allowing me to tell you how much I loved you

I still do
Oh gods, I've never stopped
My heart keeps hoping you'll come back
It keeps beating just for you

I miss you ...

Stormdancer · 04-07-2005, 10:08 PM

OMG! Trix. They are so good! Brilliant *tracks topic*

Leeness · 04-08-2005, 10:56 PM

great update Trixie *applauds* who is the person that "Dissappeared"?

Makani · 04-08-2005, 11:04 PM

Tori and Lee, thanks you guys.

Lee, who would be what my family calls a lifebond.

Stormdancer · 04-08-2005, 11:15 PM

Don't worry about it Reas. What else are special friends for *huggles*

Makani · 04-09-2005, 12:45 AM

Your Annoyance

To stay in this world
Chaotic and dying
I would be killing myself so slowly
In days, my grave I'll be lying

To stay in this world
I would only be in your way
I would be an annoyance
That you'd throw away

By your side I used to stand
Now I wait in the growing crowd
Calling out your name
But the voices are too loud

Fallen tears roll down my cheeks
Do you even see them glistening?
Do you dare to wipe them away?
Or will you stand there, pretend you're not listening?

So many years have passed
Your feelings toward me are still the same
They still crush my heart, my soul
Do you think love is a game?

I should know better by now
I should know you no longer love me
I should be able to walk out on you
The hurt you will see

Courageous and strong
I have become both
I will lead my heart away
Leaving you memories at the most

Time to say goodbye
Time for me to break free
I'm leaving you now
I hope you miss me

Stormdancer · 04-09-2005, 02:09 AM

That is brilliant Trix! Is that about him too? If so, it really hits the heart.

Makani · 04-09-2005, 02:31 AM

Yes, it is.

Leeness · 04-09-2005, 10:12 AM

ohh i lovedit, and i like the wee bits th rhymed in the 2nd and 4th lines, it was fantastic Trixie post more soon

Makani · 04-10-2005, 08:18 AM

I can't figure out why I haven't posted this yet. *scolds self*

Ti Amore

When I see you
When I look in your eyes
All my dreams seem to come true.
When I touch you
When my hands touch your body
I melt at your warmth.
When I kiss you
When our lips come together
I never want to loose your sweet taste.
When I leave you
When we go our separate ways
I cry out your name.
When I cry
When a single tear rolls down my cheek
You're there to take my sorrow away.
When I fail
When I loose all hope
You're always the one who believes in me.
When I'm angered
When I scream and shout
You're always the one who listens to all of my doubt.
When I'm dying
When I'm barely hanging on to life
You'll be the one to hold my fragile hand.
When I die
When I'm away from this world
You'll feel my presence and my loving words.
When we meet again
When I can touch you once more
I'll look up into your eyes and tell you 'Ti Amore.'

Stormdancer · 04-10-2005, 01:40 PM

brilliant. but what is Ti Amore?

Leeness · 04-10-2005, 03:28 PM

amazing poem

what is ti amore?

the last lien was my favourite

Makani · 04-11-2005, 01:17 AM

Ti Amore means 'I Love You'.

Makani · 04-11-2005, 03:35 AM

It amuses me what my mind thinks up of while in Science class..

Forced Kindness

Don't know what to do
Don't know what to think
My head is spinning around in circles
Like carrots in the sink

I can't make sense
Of all these feelings that you're making me feel
I try to forget about you
But then I'm running at your heels

I wish I could clear my thoughts
And focus on what is important
But every time I see you
My to-do list is shortened

Leave from my mind
Leave from my sight
Leave from daylight
Leave from the night

Just leave from my presence
Just - disappear
It's not so much to ask-
It's as I feared

I can't believe what I'm saying!
I can't believe these words are coming out of my mouth!
I wish I could get all of these feelings out of me
Just by kicking you down South.

All I can do is hang my head and sigh.
You are forever more stuck in my mind.
I cannot send you all of my hatred;
So I might as well be kind.

Leeness · 04-11-2005, 04:45 PM

thats amazing! its got a nice rhyme going through it

post more soon

Stormdancer · 04-11-2005, 06:00 PM

I agree with Lee, brilliant! I, personally, love your Science classes.

eirun · 04-12-2005, 07:56 AM

sigh... love poems

Angel8807 · 04-24-2005, 05:27 AM

OMG I forgot about the poetry section! I'm soo sorry I haven't been reading. lol
and you can call me Angel. You have wonderful poems and I love reading them.

Makani · 04-26-2005, 09:35 PM

Thank you for your comments, guys.

Remember

When life's set in a cave in
And your world is falling down
Remember my love.

When the ocean waters turn black
And you breathe in poison
Remember my laughter.

When your friends and family betray you
And you are alone in the streets
Remember my embrace.

When you're inches from death
And you're coughing up blood
Remember my face.

When you're lying in your grave
And you want to escape
Remember me.

Makani · 04-29-2005, 10:08 PM

Written in response to a friend's writing about me. Biographies of friends, shared.

Regina

In a world where lies are the truth,
Lives a girl who has nothing to loose.
Hopes and dream are lost and stolen;
She wears a mask her tears have woven.
A heart that's empty and black as ice,
She plays no games; she's hardly nice.
Raised by a family that never cared,
She built up a wall every time she was scared.
She once had a love, but he was taken,
Now she withdraws her heart, afraid to be forsaken.
Many have tried to bring her into the light,
But she refused, having comfort in the night.
She carries a bitterness, a thirst for revenge;
To pay back others, deaths shall be avenged.