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Originally Posted by
Mad Eye Touz 
"I didn't... mean to...," Neptune returned gape. "I usually mean to hurt when I do. Like with Ola. Ells. Mother." Those people, on occasion, Neptune WOULD hurt with mean things... Mostly for attention. All for attention, actually. She'd never aimed to hurt Jimmy though. Never, never, never in a million years. Not even when he continued to do EVERYTHING wrong and never do anything the way she wanted.
Neptune had said she wanted to him to hurt too, but now that she had that? She wanted to take it back. Turns out, that wasn't what she wanted after all.
"I'm not fine, either. I miss you. I'm jealous. I'm MAD at you. I'm SO mad at you, James Sacheverell Wilkes!"
Her hand fell to his shoulder, and her eyes closed. Neptune Bott soaked up the little attentions from him. She'd been CRAVING this. It would probably not do her any favors later, but she was going to TAKE all he'd give her. Neptune pressed herself a little greedily to his lips. She WANTED him to kiss her tears away.
"I don't ever hurt anyone on purpose." It was a point of difference between them. If he did things that hurt or were mean or whatever, that wasn't the reason for it, it was like, a byproduct of something else, of like entertainment or something.
Jealous? His eyebrow went UP at that and he scrubbed at his face with one hand. Start with the miss you one. "Miss you too." That was why he was.... hanging about. "I wish I didn't. Wish I could just.... not care. I tried that and it didn't work so well. I told you.... I wanna be your friend. Again. Or maybe we weren't ever that, not really. Kinda think we need to be."
After a bit of the eyelid kissing he pulled back, lips still tasting salty. Eh. Aww... he... couldn't... He tugged her a little closer and just sort of held her a bit, leaning down so his chin was on her shoulder, cheek against cheek.
"Its bad... I want to kiss you even though you... make me mad and I'm probably gonna hate myself later." Nobody made him hate himself like her. And he didn't hate anyone the way he hated her. Because it wasn't hate at all. Thats the part he hated, really. That he cared and was all vulnerable and ridiculous and pathetic.