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Tazenhani · 09-26-2010, 11:35 PM

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Originally Posted by Continued from the Gryffindor Common Room

Lexi jerked her arm out of his grip and glared at him. She didn't want to listen to him anymore. She was terribly upset that he had so much pain in his heart, but she was hurt too.

"You didn't have to come tell me about your situation, but you could have spoken to me, period. I am not as important to you as everyone else. I have issues too, you know. I do understand that what you are going through hurts like hell. Did it ever occur to you that I know better than most could?" she said a little heatedly.

Taking a deep breath she took a few steps back away from him and continued, "I knew as soon as I stepped foot back in this school that you didn't care about me anymore. That hurt me more than anything ever could. I have TRIED to be the best friend I can to you but it never seems to be enough for YOU. All I ever wanted is for you to be my friend and you can't seem to do that. I feel like you are always judging me, Sabel. Like you think you are so much better than me because you didn't get cursed, that you are better than me because you didn't go 'round the bend and go to St. Mungo's. I have tried time and time again to make things right between us but you won't let me. I can take a hint. YOu have Kellen and Arya. They are the only ones you need apparently. Go be with them." This time she turned swiftly and trotted off toward the portrait hole not caring that she had on merely house slippers and her pyjamas. She was so over this conversation that she just wanted to get away from the Gryffindor tower altogether. Sigh. She climbed through and cast a tearful glance over her shoulder as the Fat Lady swung closed.

As soon as he was out of the portrait, the words were coming out with heated anger. Trying to keep them between the two of them would be the issue. "Bloody hell Lexi! Did you ever stop to think that my words weren't exactly well planned out because I had no desire to be at Hogwarts period? That it had nothing to do with you? Not everything bloody well about you!"

"And not enough of a friend for me? Damnit Lexi, do you not remember two years ago? How I tried to be there for you every bloody step of the way? Even when you insulted me and my friends and pratically shoved me away to go fall into the arms of another?! I never stopped being your friend even when you did that. And do you know how bloody much that hurt? To be pushed away? And now you say that I don't find you as a friend? That you aren't good enough simply because I needed some space and said a few words at the feast?!"

A deranged sort of laughter left him as he shook his head. "I have only ever been your friend Lexi. Ever. I have bloody always been there for you and I have never judged you harshly. I wouldn't have written to you in St. Mungo's if I did. I would have cut off all contact if I thought so lowly of you. But you want me to judge? Is that what you want to hear? Perhaps you should get a grip on your own self esteem before you go throwing it in other people's mouths to hear the words against you that you seem to want to hear."

He was going to go loopy. He swore he was going to go loopy.

09-26-2010, 11:35 PM	#95 (permalink)
Tazenhani DMLE & DoM Doxy Join Date: Oct 2009 Posts: 6,150 Hogwarts RPG Name: Amur Neverwinter Fourth Year	~ Rise and Rise Again, Until Lambs become Lions ~ Quote: Originally Posted by Continued from the Gryffindor Common Room Lexi jerked her arm out of his grip and glared at him. She didn't want to listen to him anymore. She was terribly upset that he had so much pain in his heart, but she was hurt too. "You didn't have to come tell me about your situation, but you could have spoken to me, period. I am not as important to you as everyone else. I have issues too, you know. I do understand that what you are going through hurts like hell. Did it ever occur to you that I know better than most could?" she said a little heatedly. Taking a deep breath she took a few steps back away from him and continued, "I knew as soon as I stepped foot back in this school that you didn't care about me anymore. That hurt me more than anything ever could. I have TRIED to be the best friend I can to you but it never seems to be enough for YOU. All I ever wanted is for you to be my friend and you can't seem to do that. I feel like you are always judging me, Sabel. Like you think you are so much better than me because you didn't get cursed, that you are better than me because you didn't go 'round the bend and go to St. Mungo's. I have tried time and time again to make things right between us but you won't let me. I can take a hint. YOu have Kellen and Arya. They are the only ones you need apparently. Go be with them." This time she turned swiftly and trotted off toward the portrait hole not caring that she had on merely house slippers and her pyjamas. She was so over this conversation that she just wanted to get away from the Gryffindor tower altogether. Sigh. She climbed through and cast a tearful glance over her shoulder as the Fat Lady swung closed. As soon as he was out of the portrait, the words were coming out with heated anger. Trying to keep them between the two of them would be the issue. "Bloody hell Lexi! Did you ever stop to think that my words weren't exactly well planned out because I had no desire to be at Hogwarts period? That it had nothing to do with you? Not everything bloody well about you!" "And not enough of a friend for me? Damnit Lexi, do you not remember two years ago? How I tried to be there for you every bloody step of the way? Even when you insulted me and my friends and pratically shoved me away to go fall into the arms of another?! I never stopped being your friend even when you did that. And do you know how bloody much that hurt? To be pushed away? And now you say that I don't find you as a friend? That you aren't good enough simply because I needed some space and said a few words at the feast?!" A deranged sort of laughter left him as he shook his head. "I have only ever been your friend Lexi. Ever. I have bloody always been there for you and I have never judged you harshly. I wouldn't have written to you in St. Mungo's if I did. I would have cut off all contact if I thought so lowly of you. But you want me to judge? Is that what you want to hear? Perhaps you should get a grip on your own self esteem before you go throwing it in other people's mouths to hear the words against you that you seem to want to hear." He was going to go loopy. He swore he was going to go loopy. __________________ I've got a fire for a heart._________________________________________________ I'm not scared of the dark._________________________________________ _______________________________________You've never seen it look so easy.