Entry 1

I know i'm in the forest; I can smell fresh dirt and the shade from the trees, and I can feel how the ground curves under my feet. I start to walk, and after thirty steps, I can hear water running, farther ahead and to my right. I don't have my cane, so I hold my hands out a bit in front of me. The trees I encounter all have thin trunks--but not smooth like birch trees. I get the feeling they're pine trees, but I can't be certain. I know it's day because it's not cool enough to be night, but I hear an owl in the tree directly above me. It calls out two or three times, then goes quiet. The ground starts to slope downwards a bit and the noise gets louder.

I know I'm wearing my dress shoes because I wobble, even with the low heel. I have a hunch I'm wearing my blue layered skirt because the tag is bothering me, but the shirt I'm wearing isn't one I know. It's thin, but longsleeved. Cotton. It's a bit of a V-neck. As I get closer to the sound of running water, I feel mist on my face, and I suddenly remember having this dream before. I put my arms down because I know that there's only one tree left in front of me before the ground is flat again. Now I'm really wobbly because the grass is so thick.

I bend down and un-fasten the buckles so I'm barefoot now. I take a few more steps before I'm standing in the water. It's neither hot nor cold, and the rocks on the bottom are smooth. I keep walking, even though I know what's going to happen. The mist gets thicker, and fifteen steps in, the water is up to my waist and I'm nearly under the waterfall. Suddenly, I can't hear the water anymore, but the water I'm standing in feels very warm now.

And then I feel two hands on my shoulders, and they push me under the water. I slip and then I wake up. I've had the dream before, and, of course, I see nothing, but it always is the same. I'm always surprised when I'm pushed under the water.