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Erindipity · 06-28-2010, 06:45 PM

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Originally Posted by Tazenhani

Sabel watched her with the same sympathetic and understanding expression as before. He didn't flinch or retract his tone. "I never said it was. Heck if I know how hard it is, Lexi. But you have to let go. I never said forget, I said let go. It's in the past. There is nothing you can do to change it. You have cried, you have grieved, that is good. You get angry, that is good. But you need to move on. You need to learn how to forgive yourself. Things will only get worse, the guilt will only increase and pull you down if you don't."

He shifted off the couch and sat beside her, looking at her earnestly. "Lexi, please. I am not trying to hurt you by saying these things. I'm not trying to say you are a bad person, because you are not. But until you make the decision to forgive yourself, until you decide to let go, none of this will change. You'll still cry, you'll still dream, you'll still be unable to focus in quidditch. You will have no trust left for yourself, and then, if you can't trust yourself, how are you supposed to trust others?" He reached up and gently guided a strand of hair from her face, being careful not to startle her. "But Lexi, this is something you have to decide to do, on your own. No one can do this for you. You aren't alone in this, no matter what, but you have to make the decision to move on, before things will start changing."

Staring at him exasperatedly she said, "Sabel... I have tried! I was in the mental ward of St. Mungo's for MONTHS trying to let go. I have tried everything I can. Mental health issues run in my family... It might not be something I can control. I feel better when I am with Dylan or Reese. I think I feel better knowing that they had it as bad as I did..." Rambling...

Then he came to sit beside her and she flinched slightly. "Sabel... please stop being so nice to me. I think you should keep your distance from me honestly... I feel really strongly about you and this is not a good thing," she muttered and swatted his hand away from her face. It was maddening being this close to him.

"I don't need to trust anyone... Trusting people is what got me to this place. I trusted Remi before he cursed me. I trusted him and sat in the Hog's Head and talked to him. THat is what makes me the sickest of all. I actually liked him.... Then he caused me to hurt so many people... I hurt those that I care the most about. I only trust Dylan and Reese really... I don't need to trust people," she said as the tears finally spilled from her eyes and began to run down her cheeks.

06-28-2010, 06:45 PM	#460 (permalink)
Erindipity DMT Mountain Troll Join Date: Jul 2009 Posts: 23,574 x8	Quote: Originally Posted by Tazenhani Sabel watched her with the same sympathetic and understanding expression as before. He didn't flinch or retract his tone. "I never said it was. Heck if I know how hard it is, Lexi. But you have to let go. I never said forget, I said let go. It's in the past. There is nothing you can do to change it. You have cried, you have grieved, that is good. You get angry, that is good. But you need to move on. You need to learn how to forgive yourself. Things will only get worse, the guilt will only increase and pull you down if you don't." He shifted off the couch and sat beside her, looking at her earnestly. "Lexi, please. I am not trying to hurt you by saying these things. I'm not trying to say you are a bad person, because you are not. But until you make the decision to forgive yourself, until you decide to let go, none of this will change. You'll still cry, you'll still dream, you'll still be unable to focus in quidditch. You will have no trust left for yourself, and then, if you can't trust yourself, how are you supposed to trust others?" He reached up and gently guided a strand of hair from her face, being careful not to startle her. "But Lexi, this is something you have to decide to do, on your own. No one can do this for you. You aren't alone in this, no matter what, but you have to make the decision to move on, before things will start changing." Staring at him exasperatedly she said, "Sabel... I have tried! I was in the mental ward of St. Mungo's for MONTHS trying to let go. I have tried everything I can. Mental health issues run in my family... It might not be something I can control. I feel better when I am with Dylan or Reese. I think I feel better knowing that they had it as bad as I did..." Rambling... Then he came to sit beside her and she flinched slightly. "Sabel... please stop being so nice to me. I think you should keep your distance from me honestly... I feel really strongly about you and this is not a good thing," she muttered and swatted his hand away from her face. It was maddening being this close to him. "I don't need to trust anyone... Trusting people is what got me to this place. I trusted Remi before he cursed me. I trusted him and sat in the Hog's Head and talked to him. THat is what makes me the sickest of all. I actually liked him.... Then he caused me to hurt so many people... I hurt those that I care the most about. I only trust Dylan and Reese really... I don't need to trust people," she said as the tears finally spilled from her eyes and began to run down her cheeks.