Qaz felt like and idiot...leaning against the wall, trying not to cry. She knew that this was probably one of the happiest moments of her life and she had nobody to share it with. She thought about sending and owl to her mother....dad would probably kill it. She thought about the Shaman back on the Reservation. Most of them didn't see an owl has a happy messenger. There was nobody to talk to....the loneliness started to overwhelm her....