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-Entry Eighteen-
A lot has happened recently. I mean, a LOT. So much in fact, that I might leave something out. So, if I do, bear with me. Who am I kidding? Of course you will bear with me. Everyone does.
No one can get enough of Evolette McKenna.
So, anyway. Carrying on.
First of all, Terry and I broke up. It's a very long, messy and complicated story, and I really have no desire to relive it or record it for all of eternity. Let's just say, I will not be getting over it any time soon. Terry was the first person I ever felt the need to let my guard down for, the only guy I ever had a reason to fight for.
I'm not going to ever let myself forget about him, because, quite frankly, I don't ever want to let myself forget what it is like to love someone like that, and have them love me in return.
I know that we're done now, and I've made my peace with it. But that doesn't change the fact that I will always wonder what could have happened. You never forget your first love.
Secondly, Nicholai has left Hogwarts. Something about his uncle wanting him for something of some sort, I'll be honest, when I went to go see him, I was still a wreck about my breakup, and didn't really pay attention to the particulars, but the point is, he's gone. Sure, He promised to write to me. But, it won't be the same.
How am I meant to make people squirm with my very presence, if I don't have my Nicholai at my side? Who am I going to turn to when I need someone who's there for Evolette and Evolette alone.
I still have Hugo, thank Merlin for that, because if I didn't have my best friend, I probably would have thrown myself off of the astronomy tower by now, but, Hugie is best friends with Terry too. With Nicholai, he was my friend, and mine alone. He didn't have any biases or attachments to the people I might have problems with. My best interest was what he was worried about.
I probably sound very selfish to you, dear reader. But, if you are surprised by that at all, then you really have not been paying attention at all, and probably should go bang your head against a wall.
So here I am. Evolette McKenna minus Terry Saunders, minus Nicholai Toussaint equals a half empty shell.
-Evolette |