this forum is so deserted =(
anyway, i'll just write to myself

The only ones I love are drifting away from me
The only things I love are disappearing in the waves
What is this world trying to do to me?
Slowly and painfully killing me...

Every time I wade out far away from shore
Expecting the waters to close over my troubles
How is my mind to remember that it's not okay?
They're not going to fade out of existence as long as I live.

Haunting me, drowning me into a pool without light
Extract no reaction for my world is as dark as night
Choking on the air not given for me to breathe
One by one my hopes are leaving and I don't believe

Why did I let myself be fooled by the traps of reality?
I thought somehow the sun would shine through
I was praying for a day when I finally could see, but I only found
That no such day exists for the one condemned to hide

I can't swim through another bend in the river of disappointments
cackling its impending doom at me, smiling
I just want to make it, it that too much to ask?
I want to live my dreams, why were they shattered?
Like a fragile jar that cannot be mended...