I'm dedicating it to Cai...thanks for all your help. <3

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We were playing cards and every time I looked at him, my stomach felt like it was spinning, but very slowly. It was queezy and yet welcoming at the same time.

Out of the blue, Matt asked, "Why didn't you answer my calls this morning? I had something I really wanted to say, but you wouldn't answer the 10 different times that I called."

"Sorry, I thought you were Ray."

"What's that supposed to mean?"

"I broke up with him. I got 50 different calls and I just ignored them. He showed up on my doorstep, but mom wouldn't let him in, and then she silenced him."

"Oh, I see, now."

Half an hour of silence later...

"So why were you calling? What was it that you needed to tell me so badly?" I asked.

"Can I have a hug?" Matt asked.

"That's what you needed to tell me??"

"Partly, yes. The hug though?" he half pleaded.

"Okay, fine." So I went over and gave him a hug. When I went to go back to my seat on the other side, he whispered, "No please, don't go, stay here and sit with me?"

I gave in and sat with him, mainly in silence. Surprisingly, I enjoyed it. For the last year, whenever I was left alone with him it always felt kind of weird and awkward. Now it feels kind of nice.

"Do you ever feel like some things are meant to be?" I asked to break the silence.

"Yes, but there's something I wanted to talk to you about..." Matt said.

"What? You know you can tell me anything, right?"

"Yes... Well, um, I was wondering if you would, um... like to... be my girlfriend?" he stumbled.

I was extremely shocked when he asked me this. I didn't have any idea that he felt this way. For the last 2 years he didn't go without a girlfriend for more than 2 weeks. Now he was looking at me with a shimmer in his eyes that I have never seen before with any other guy that has liked me. My stomach and my head felt like they were moving in slow motion. Maybe I actually do like him.

Yes... but why? You never seemed interested in me before. Why now?" I replied a little strictly.

"This is kind of hard for me to admit... but, it was all to make you jealous. But this year I decided that I'd just tell you. It feels better just to be open about it. Everything about you makes me feel good. I can't stand it when you are mad at me. Nothing ever seems right when you are upset, or mad," he said. Then, he abruptly got up from beside me and stormed out of the compartment.

Sorry, just HAD to leave it like that....