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Chapter 9: Enough Cryin' - Mary J. Blige*

Honestly. I need to get a hold on myself. Merlin, me, crying over Malfoy? I sound truly not myself and overly-pathetic. Pansy Parkinson cries over Malfoy, not Hermione Granger. When I was done yelling at him I ran upstairs and started crying. I really don't know why. Okay that's a lie; I DO know why. And it's a vile, disturbing, and repulsive reason, too. And I will just PUSH that reason from my mind.

So. I'm just eating breakfast, trying to forget about it all, but when you're telling yourself to forget, you think about what you're trying to forget and it makes you remember so all reason for trying to forget is lost. Oh Lord.

"Hermione...are you okay?" Harry asked me. Apparently I was about to put food into my mouth but the food never got there. What a sight I must be.

"OH! Yes Harry! I'm just fine. I'm just DANDY as some would put it. Never, never, better!" I said with overly-enthusiastic sarcasm.

Ron and Harry exchanged confused looks and shrugged.

"Ready for first day classes?" Harry asked me.

"More then you think," I answered truthfully. This will definitley take my mind off things.

When I got into Potions (Harry and Ron literally had to pull me into the Dungeons when I realized that the Slytherins were going to be in there), I sat as far as I could from Malfoy. But that didn't work because he kept looking back at me while Snape was giving instructions.

"Mr. Malfoy. Who, might I ask, are you looking at back there? It clearly can't be-" Snape stopped midsentence and looked at me. "Well, well, well. What do we have here? I barely recognized you, Miss Granger. I'm surprised. You're old appearance fit you well. It was just right for a scheming know-it-all."

Slytherin insults were really getting old. I was done crying. I let my eyes drift to Malfoy. He was staring at me, and when he noticed me looking back, his eyebrows shot up. I wasn't going to let him get what he wanted so my eyes diverted from him. Everyone was still staring at me. In front of me, Seamus grinned. I returned the grin bigger then I intended, but that was only becuse I saw Malfoy frusturatedly push himself forward in his chair and turn around.

As Snape droned on in class, instructing us on what to put in our potion, Malfoy turned around again. Ron leaned in and whispered, "Honestly, why does that creep looking back here? If he keeps this up, I'm gonna make it so he doesn't have eyes to look back here with."

"Oh don't be silly Ronald. He isn't looking at us.." Haha, I wish that were true.

"Sure doesn't seem like it. What's going on between you two?"

"The same thing that's been going on for the 7 years we've been here," I said. Yet again, I wish that was true.

Ron studied my face, shrugged, and then went back to his work.

After class, Malfoy almost caught up with me when Seamus pulled me aside.

"Hey, what's up?" I asked him. I could see Malfoy closely behind us, apparently eavsdropping. What a sneak.

"Do you think can help - no that's lame. You wanna hang out tonight?" He looked up from his feet.

Oh my gosh! Perfect time for revenge! But that would be terrible to use Seamus like that. He's so nice. Truthfully, I can get something out of this..Maybe a boyfriend for all the right reasons. So, I'll do it for a date AND revenge.

"Yeah, of course!" And for full effect, I gave him a hug. Malfoy's eyes mouth dropped. He looked mad.

I've done enough cryin, cryin, cryin. It's time to say bye, bye, bye. It's time I do somethin for me.


whoa. finally! a longer post. woo! hope ya'll enjoy it!

* i like this song. Mary J. is so talented. i like her.