*blushes* Thank you. Um, all rigt, another update. Hands are getting worse as the summer progresses, but I have an EMG scheduled for Augst 4th... Anyway, here you go:


Under the Surface

Walking on thin ice,
Hear a cracking sound,
Keep on walking,
Looking around.

Suddenly the ice,
That was once beneath,
Is now holding me,
Underneath.

Under the ice,
But I can see,
See the world,
Laughing at me.

People on the other side,
I pound and I thrash,
They don’t know,
They think I’m trash.

Try to get out,
Try to scream,
Heart pounding in my ears,
Playing its deadly theme.

Cold has stopped,
Fading away,
Lost to the world,
Lead astray.

Darkness comes,
Senses fail,
Thinking stops,
Arms don’t flail.

Death bound,
To the ground,
Screaming, no sound,
Never found.


Trapped

Go ahead, ask me what’s wrong,
I’ll take you into my mind,
But I can’t guarantee,
You’ll like what you find.

You’ll be surrounded by dark,
And scream till you have no breath,
You’ll feel my tortured agony,
You’ll be begging, pleading for death.

Hear the voices in my head,
Hear them whisper, hear them shout,
Hear your own voice calling,
Crying to get out.

Feel the pain I feel each day,
Punishment for my every sin,
Feel my anger at the world,
Feel the fire raging within.

Then slowly you will realize,
I’ve trapped you in this place,
Where the darkness never ends,
And nothing’s your saving grace.

Soon the voices will chant,
Telling you suicide’s okay,
Saying that you should listen,
And do exactly as they say.

You now belong to them,
Your freedom is no more,
You’re not like other people,
Just forget your life before.

Bravo, you’ve figured it out,
Come here and take a bow,
This hellish world around you,
Is your future now.



Coward

They say that I am ugly,
They say that I am fat,
They say that no one,
Wants to be where I am at.

They say that I am stupid,
That say no one’s my friend,
They broke down my resistance,
And I believed them in the end.

The water that runs down my body,
Water that once made me slack,
Now holds me tense,
There’s no turning back.

My hands are shaking so bad,
Tears are filling my eyes,
Some part of me says this is wrong
But I know that that’s just lies.

I shut my eyes,
Clench my fist,
And bring the knife,
Down to my wrist.

Suddenly I stop,
The blade against my skin,
I don’t know who will lose,
The raging battle within.

I realize I can’t do it,
I can’t take my life away,
I feel like such a coward,
But maybe I’ll be brave someday.

And maybe someday I’ll have the guts,
The courage to finally face,
The consequences for,
Being nothing but a disgrace.