Thanks Danz! Ha ha fantabulous. Such a lovely not-quite-real word.

My Coming-of-Age is Yet-to-Come
Every time I watch a movie
read a story or a book
inspiration for another
something comes to mind
doubtless it'll be forgotten
by tomorrow's light
but somewhere in my mind
I think I'm waiting
until it's exactly right
before I go out and
expose myself fully
I have to make sure
that it will be accepted
at least by me, right?
So here I am
looking at the screen
something about this person
makes me want to
scrape it down
out pour the
corny monologues
or character descriptions
too bad that I am lacking in
the instruments to capture it
without disturbing its nature
oh dear
it's not verse I want, Godd*mnit
it's just another
coming-of-age rebellion story

edit: on a different note, last night (or this morning) at 4ish, I was watching The-N, and there was a music video on it, this Sarah McLaughlin-type chick comes on and starts singing. The song was called "Breathe 2 am" or something...and she was saying "it's 2 am and I'm still awake .... song in my head ... waiting to get out on paper so that it's not bothering me anymore ..." something like that and I was like "yeah. that's it." Or something. Just thought that was interesting. At 4ish in the morning, simple things are interesting.