F.O.D. but you still have to feed me
To do what you want is
forget what I want and to commit spiritual suicide; to lose
To do what I want is to
be reprimanded and scorned; to lose
To do either is to lose
but somehow I get lost in translation
and satisfy no one
not even myself
and remain without gratification
so here I am standing
back at square one
worse off than when I started
so I chose to rebel
and was left with no guilt
but the sound of hatred in your voice
**** you is the sound
of the voice in my head
but my mouth says nothing
and you hear that loud and clear
funny; when I'm saying things
you never seem to notice
or maybe you just don't care enough
to even pretend
what is it that makes you tick?
because you do a great job to tick me off
sometimes you know I just don't want to hear
how much you want me to succeed
because it makes me so much angrier
I know it doesn't make much sense
but I like to decide things for myself
thank you very much
I don't think you can appreciate that
or at least you don't seem to show it
maybe you care
so you tell me, it's true
but how many times must I listen to you?
if you maybe just let me make my own mistakes
I would learn it a million times better and know
that it was my own doing and that no one else
can take that away from me
but you would rather be my failure
be the one holding me up so high
that when I do fall
it is so much more difficult
to take myself to my feet
to "help" me is to hurt me
and I know that you know it
but you just can't resist
I know that it's because you care
but I can't let you know that I do as well
because giving in
is giving up
and everyone likes to do things on their own

I'm a big kid now
so shut up and let me grow up
by myself




Wow. What a load off my back. I know that kind of doesn't make sense because I just sort of was venting my anger but if you couldn't tell it was about my parents and if the poem seems a bit confused it's because I'm confused and don't know what I'm saying or what to say and this is the worst run-on sentence crime I have ever commited so I shall now take me leave and my breath.