I'm on a roll and I can't stop it.


Caring feelings
I'm sick with my own (dis)pleasure
smothered by the disillusions
come crashing down on me
see if I care
see if I care
A horrible lump has grown in my throat
I choke on it to show a smile
But it can't be faked through the tears in my eyes
see if I care
Maybe it's beign self-destructive
not to let the tears be cried
It'll turn into fury
Oh I hope not
see if I care
what do I care?
so maybe I'm shaking
so maybe I'm breaking
doesn't matter, doesn't matter
what do I care?
I can't change it
I'm feeling lonely again
brought down from inexplicable high
what do I care?
I guess I care.