Who am I to believe my soul or mind?

I'm stuck here at the bottom
no sign of a search party
or anyone for that matter.
Not one soul insight I weap.
Is this what I have come to?
Have I amde everyone around me so
misserable that they would leave me here to rot?

I start to fall fastter and faster,
I dug this hole, and jumped in.
Why did I do this? Why didn't my soul think?
My mind was thinking for me
he knows I don't like him,
he knows that I despise him.
He knows that he is truley who I long to be.
I'm ahamed of the fact that a star accended
from the heavens above
to talk to me, someone who has barely even been
in the precence of one.
My heart his skipping and my soul is thinking
these words are spilling out of me like blood
rushing from a flesh wound.
When all is said and done, who am I?