TWO BRAINS, ONE HEART, ONE FACE

Sometimes, I wish I were some one else. Someone completely different. Someone with no secrets to hide, no vices to eliminate, and no horrid thoughts flooding my brain. I wish I was a girl who always smiled, no matter what, who always laughed, and always loved. A girl that people enjoyed being around because of her energy and positivity. Instead, I am a girl- a girl so different from how people see me. I am a girl with a bright smile, a loving energy. I am a girl with dark secrets and eternal tears. A girl who's heart does not remember love, for what love goes to it, gets lost in its abysmal darkness. A girl who just wants to scream it out to everyone- Tell any body who would listen- what was going on inside her. I just want one person-only one, that can relate to me, that understands what goes on in my head. And with this one person, I pray, that they will listen, and be with me- comfort me, and allow me, through all my suffering, to cling to them. Although I may be that girl, the girl with the smiles and the tears, the love and the hate, I still need comfort, support, understanding- Something I do not know. And perhaps, that one who I cling to will turn on the light in my pitch black heart, a miniscule light that shines from afar, and from that light, starts a rebirth, a process of reproduction or spawning of more lights, making the pitch brighter and brighter, my sorrows lesser and lesser, and my smiles more and more. And even though I may be happy, I shall suffer on, and only then, as I suffer, I shall cling to them. To you.

© Erin Leigh/ Professor Loel