 Nicole & Celinde ❣ Sarah thinks I'm cute | Shan's safe space.
This summer was Winifred's favourite yet: she loved summer, and had found that fondness growing after they had started school. It became a slice of the year that was very much like before. Before Hogwarts, when they'd all been together; home schooled on the go, learning magic alongside music, intertwined with the culture of whatever city they'd been in that day. She was glad, so glad, that the sibcousins were enjoying school; that they were making friends, and memories, and getting to experience the teenage things that, in another life, they may have wished for. But she was so overwhelmingly lost, sometimes, that she longed for the time when it had been just them.
Maybe it was because, from her perspective, she hadn't fit in as easily as they all had: it wasn't anyone's fault but her own, of course, her need to keep people at arms length, to be watching and looking out for the people she cared most about rather than indulging in those teen experiences. And the need to be perfect, to control...
It didn't do to think about, the reasons she'd left school so early that year. Especially not now, when everyone was home and she should be soaking up the time with them. Because all too soon they would return, and she would likely not be with them. Sure, she'd floated the idea of resitting, but even the sadness she'd felt at missing out on graduation wasn't enough to make her really consider it. Even if she failed the two NEWTs she'd managed to sit, homeschooling (or no schooling) felt like the better option. Less chance of upsetting the careful balance she'd managed to restore.
But wait, she wasn't thinking about that - no, she was here with Celi, and she was wholly focussed on their time together.
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⇀ Standing now, calling all the people here to see the show_____________________________
Calling for my demons now to let me go ↽
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