 Which came first, the phoenix or the flame?
What’s the most uncomfortable situation you’ve ever found yourself in? That one time with Emmerson. No, wait- when I upset Lumi. Yeah.
What do you wish you understood better? Who I am. Ash wondered how that was relevant.
What memory makes you feel all warm and fuzzy? ...Warm and fuzzy? Wait wait wait!!! She didn't really ever feel warm and fuzzy. She either felt very sad or very in love or very interested or very mad or very happy and none of those were fuzzy feelings! Happiness was definitely not fuzzy(wouldn't dying feel more fuzzy?)- it was clear, like breathing should be. Although she did admit that it was warm. Afraid to ask for clarification, she tried her best to interpret. The memory she'd been using for it was the one with Theodore. She had some good memories from Hogwarts, but Hogwarts would never be a good memory. Some of the times her Father had interacted with her? No... ........ Could they use an angry, determined memory instead? This was so frustrating. She'd just use the one from saving Theodore again, because it seemed like a pretty strong positive memory.
Ash did not want to write any of that down, so she wrote it on a paper and promptly put the paper in her pocket where nobody could see it.
She practiced the familiar incantation and wand movement. "Expecto Patronum."(circle) "Expecto Patronum."(circle) "Expecto Patronum..." Actually, she was trying for the real thing, but that was hard to tell since nothing was happening. She had sometimes felt very close to producing something in the boathouse with her art and in the right state of mind... and none of that was present here. No water, no artwork, no solitude, and definitely no right state of mind. "Expecto Patronum..."(circle) "Expecto Patronum..."(circle)
Expecto... Patronum? Ash did not look very expectant. |