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Govoni · 06-07-2017, 03:19 AM

After the showdown with Takeru, Olivia had been...confused at herself and the way she'd behaved. The words she'd seemingly been forced to say. She hated getting into with people, especially her favorites. Takeru definitely fit that category, and for about forty minutes, she'd sat stunned out on the Promenade Deck. Stunned and heartbroken that she'd hurt him so badly. It wasn't like she could've helped it. Decisions were hard, but they were still decisions. She'd accepted a ring from a boy and had given her word.

That meant something, didn't it?

.....Even if that boy wasn't speaking to her, and was taking every available opportunity to dance with others. Everyone but her. That should've hurt, but Olivia was...slowly just accepting that it didn't matter how she felt. She wasn't worth the trouble and had a feeling everyone was starting to realize as much. In fact, she deserved every bad emotion coursing through her veins at the current moment, and wasn't going to complain about another thing. That was selfish, and she was done with being selfish. What did it matter, anyway? None of this mattered. None of it.

The blonde was slowly losing her way again. The struggle to hold onto sanity so that she wouldn't have to go back to that place far away...was one she was quickly losing against. There was simply too much stacked against her... with OWLs, with not having her biggest support systems, with all the added self-confidence issues. Was it really...just....so bad to want those that were meant to care for her to...build her up sometimes? Tell her she was beautiful for no reason, tell her they loved her and that she was important....? Liv hadn't realized that was too much to ask for, and regretted all the situations leading up to this point when she'd...again, been so selfish.

Standing at the bottom of the grand staircase after making another flawless entrance...because she wasn't a novice to making entrances, Olivia looked around for her daddy. Right now...she just needed her father to hold her and tell her everything would be okay because he loved her, and that her mother loved her...and that they'd always do so.

06-07-2017, 03:19 AM	#109 (permalink)
Govoni MO & DMLE Blast-Ended Skrewt Join Date: Aug 2009 Location: Dragonstone Posts: 15,583 Hogwarts RPG Name: Lyric Bayliss-Black Slytherin Fourth Year x12 x12	For Carter Phillips blends Twitter/SS for my brain Zombie Apocalypse Team Leader ★ ★ in a crown of pepperoni and artisan cheese After the showdown with Takeru, Olivia had been...confused at herself and the way she'd behaved. The words she'd seemingly been forced to say. She hated getting into with people, especially her favorites. Takeru definitely fit that category, and for about forty minutes, she'd sat stunned out on the Promenade Deck. Stunned and heartbroken that she'd hurt him so badly. It wasn't like she could've helped it. Decisions were hard, but they were still decisions. She'd accepted a ring from a boy and had given her word. That meant something, didn't it? .....Even if that boy wasn't speaking to her, and was taking every available opportunity to dance with others. Everyone but her. That should've hurt, but Olivia was...slowly just accepting that it didn't matter how she felt. She wasn't worth the trouble and had a feeling everyone was starting to realize as much. In fact, she deserved every bad emotion coursing through her veins at the current moment, and wasn't going to complain about another thing. That was selfish, and she was done with being selfish. What did it matter, anyway? None of this mattered. None of it. The blonde was slowly losing her way again. The struggle to hold onto sanity so that she wouldn't have to go back to that place far away...was one she was quickly losing against. There was simply too much stacked against her... with OWLs, with not having her biggest support systems, with all the added self-confidence issues. Was it really...just....so bad to want those that were meant to care for her to...build her up sometimes? Tell her she was beautiful for no reason, tell her they loved her and that she was important....? Liv hadn't realized that was too much to ask for, and regretted all the situations leading up to this point when she'd...again, been so selfish. Standing at the bottom of the grand staircase after making another flawless entrance...because she wasn't a novice to making entrances, Olivia looked around for her daddy. Right now...she just needed her father to hold her and tell her everything would be okay because he loved her, and that her mother loved her...and that they'd always do so. __________________ We live in cities you'll *never* see onscreen..._______________________________________________ So very pretty, and we sure know how to run things..._______________________________ Livin' in ruins of a *palace, within our dreams...____________ We're on each other's team._____ Last edited by Govoni; 06-07-2017 at 05:23 AM.*