 Puff by day, snake by night | Mj's bestie | Always UP to Something...
Nat sat there her eyes on the headmistress. She glanced at the door. She could just leave. It was an option, she could quit and be done. Yes she would not be able to take NEWTs and she would disappoint Joe, but she couldn't take another day at the moment. Where was Healer Reed when you needed him. She felt the anxiety bubbling, but ignored it for the time being. There was nothing she was going to do about it now, she was just going to sit here.
The imitation her started to talk again and this time the words went through her. She knew she shouldn't have said them, that she would own, but at the moment she was frustrated, hurt, and upset. The librarian deserved it in her opinion. The woman was not very nice, she barely gave Nat the time of day last term when she tired to talk to her and now this term.. She had permission to be in there and that woman acted like she didn't. Acted like she was doing something wrong. Again the act of helping being wrong.
Her eyes lifted to the headmistress. She sat quietly biting her cheek. If she spoke emotions were going to happen and she was so beyond the emotions happening. She wished that portal would have just taken her. It would have been easier than being here. She looked to the ground, "What would you like me to say ma'am? That I stink at head girl? I could have told you that at the beginning of term or better yet go ask your Ravenclaw prefect. He enjoys saying that I only have the badge because of my father." Yep she shouldn't have spoke, because now she wasn't going to be able to control her thoughts, emotions, or words. "Would you like me to say that even though I've tried and tried to prove him wrong to do the best I can to keep up with everything that I'm still wrong? That trying to not let someone be alone because what I thought was right was wrong? Or would you like me to say that even though I had permission to be in that restricted section, even after everything that had happened, the librarian still treated me as if I was sneaking in there and had no right to be there? That she put a book back I wanted to show the professor, that she magically ripped a book out of my hands that I was looking at, so I lost it? Is that what you want me to say?" What did the woman want from her she was so over it, all of it.
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