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Daemon · 08-18-2015, 07:41 PM

Text Cut: Gracie <3

Part two.

Afternoon, summer of 2087

Benzi Rider sat down across from the worn tombstone and gently placed the fresh batch of flowers directly underneath the grey letters. Today they were a navy blue. A Ravenclaw blue. Taking out a small pin etched with bronze lettering, a duplicate he’d had his mother make him before he left the house, he reached out his arm to put it down behind the flowers, out of sight, then leaned his elbows on his knees.

Taking a few moments just to think, he looked around to double check that he was alone.

"Hey Jake. It’s been a while.

It feels weird being back here after so long, I almost forgot how to get to you. You have to walkstraight and take a right at the tombstone with the old lady portrait who looks like Botros - who’s still at Hogwarts by the way but we’ll get to that - take a left at the small graves and then you’re past the shiny white one that’s been shiny since before you were buried. Bit creepy actually, graves aren’t supposed to look like that.

I came… to tell you things. For a long time I didn’t really think life could ever be normal again because you were gone. You were gone, Aunt Nina was gone, Lucas, Alice, all of you were gone and Suri was only six and wouldn’t stop crying. It was rough and difficult and messy and ugly and I hated looking back because what was the point? You’d left me here. You went to another place and you left me.

So Mum fell apart and I left Hogwarts, and everything was horrible. I came to see you so many times I think I was here more than I was at home. Mum hated it. Do you remember I took my pillow and my blanket and came to sleep here? The security guard found me the next morning, he threatened to have me taken away from Mum because she didn’t notice I’d gone missing. I think I bit him? He was an idiot. The only way life could have been any worse was if Mum had left me too.

She almost did. Well, not in the sense that she abandoned me but… it took her a while to stop being sad. We ate pizza for days on end, and it’s not as fun as some people would think. Aunt Rhea helped us a lot but she was busy and could only drop by so often. I don’t think Mum felt comfortable with her help anyways. Anyone’s help, really. She stopped teaching, she ate even less than we did, some days it was like she wasn’t there.

But then suddenly we had homemade food for dinner. Without us noticing, we had bedtimes again and we had to do our homework. She put Suri in ballet class, told me I should try drums and that was the start of our new life. It was tiring and difficult and sometimes it seemed impossible, but somehow we did it.

I once brought Q here to meet you, d'you remember? I could tell she didn’t really want to come because let’s face it you’re not really here, but I made her come anyway because it was important to me. She was… she made me happier than I had been since before you died. She was funny, energetic, she kept me on my toes all the time. She was predictably unpredictable and I loved her to death, then she broke my heart and another part of me kind of died.

I hated her, and I used that hate to get me to do things. I became better at drumming, my schoolwork improved and come September first 2086 I found myself wearing a blue tie, speeding across the countryside on my way back to Hogwarts. I like to pretend I got to Hogwarts on my own, but I think it was Q and Mum who somehow made me think I wanted it. Certainly I used it as an excuse to get as far away from Q as possible.

Basically, I won’t bore you with Hogwarts details, I think I’ll tell you that another time. What I came here to say is that I’m good. I’m good, Jake. I can honestly say that with everything that I’ve got. I have friends, best friends, I have a new girlfriend, Suri’s going with me to Hogwarts next term, I’m in a band, Mum’s going to be promoted to a Professor. I’m still going to be an Auror just like I told you seven years ago, I was made Prefect for my last term and I can cast a corporeal patronus at long last.

It’s a wolf, by the way. Mum helped me with it. It’s big and shaggy and everything I hoped it would be. I’m going to get it tattooed on my back at the festival I’m going to with Noel, Hayley and Evie. It’s been a bumpy ride Jake, but I’m finally good. I’m fine. You’re not here, and that’s okay. I still miss you, but it’s okay. I’ll love you forever and it’s still okay.

I have to head back now, I’ve got a date. I’m going to break the news that I made Prefect to Evie. I think I might get Suri to bake the badge in a cake and have Evie find it like that. Hopefully she doesn’t swallow it.

I don’t know when I’ll be back, and that’s okay too. Send my regards to Aunt Nina, Lucas and Alice and tell those two to stop smirking like that, I can feel their smug satisfaction all the way over here and it’s annoying.

Love you all. Miss you like always.

Bye."

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Daemon Antipodean Opaleye Join Date: Feb 2008 Location: making playlists Posts: 9,746 Hogwarts RPG Name: Maggie Woods Gryffindor Seventh Year Hogwarts RPG Name: Levi Jourdan Slytherin Sixth Year x4 x2	PHILOMATH ❅ not one atom, but two ♪ ♪ made of starstuff ❅ def main(): Text Cut: Gracie <3 Quote: Originally Posted by D.A Forever Oh. my. goodness. dies a little bit I'm just now seeing this, and reading it, and OHMYGOSH. RACHELLL <3 Oh my gosh. I totally teared up, and very nearly cried. Poor, poor Rachel. </3 Jake was amazing.. he really was. totally remembers Write more? Please? I ABSOLUTELY ADORE YOU AND YOUR INVESTMENT IN MY RIDERS <3 <3 <3 and... since you asked so nicely, here's part two. Part two. Afternoon, summer of 2087 Benzi Rider sat down across from the worn tombstone and gently placed the fresh batch of flowers directly underneath the grey letters. Today they were a navy blue. A Ravenclaw blue. Taking out a small pin etched with bronze lettering, a duplicate he’d had his mother make him before he left the house, he reached out his arm to put it down behind the flowers, out of sight, then leaned his elbows on his knees. Taking a few moments just to think, he looked around to double check that he was alone. "Hey Jake. It’s been a while. It feels weird being back here after so long, I almost forgot how to get to you. You have to walkstraight and take a right at the tombstone with the old lady portrait who looks like Botros - who’s still at Hogwarts by the way but we’ll get to that - take a left at the small graves and then you’re past the shiny white one that’s been shiny since before you were buried. Bit creepy actually, graves aren’t supposed to look like that. I came… to tell you things. For a long time I didn’t really think life could ever be normal again because you were gone. You were gone, Aunt Nina was gone, Lucas, Alice, all of you were gone and Suri was only six and wouldn’t stop crying. It was rough and difficult and messy and ugly and I hated looking back because what was the point? You’d left me here. You went to another place and you left me. So Mum fell apart and I left Hogwarts, and everything was horrible. I came to see you so many times I think I was here more than I was at home. Mum hated it. Do you remember I took my pillow and my blanket and came to sleep here? The security guard found me the next morning, he threatened to have me taken away from Mum because she didn’t notice I’d gone missing. I think I bit him? He was an idiot. The only way life could have been any worse was if Mum had left me too. She almost did. Well, not in the sense that she abandoned me but… it took her a while to stop being sad. We ate pizza for days on end, and it’s not as fun as some people would think. Aunt Rhea helped us a lot but she was busy and could only drop by so often. I don’t think Mum felt comfortable with her help anyways. Anyone’s help, really. She stopped teaching, she ate even less than we did, some days it was like she wasn’t there. But then suddenly we had homemade food for dinner. Without us noticing, we had bedtimes again and we had to do our homework. She put Suri in ballet class, told me I should try drums and that was the start of our new life. It was tiring and difficult and sometimes it seemed impossible, but somehow we did it. I once brought Q here to meet you, d'you remember? I could tell she didn’t really want to come because let’s face it you’re not really here, but I made her come anyway because it was important to me. She was… she made me happier than I had been since before you died. She was funny, energetic, she kept me on my toes all the time. She was predictably unpredictable and I loved her to death, then she broke my heart and another part of me kind of died. I hated her, and I used that hate to get me to do things. I became better at drumming, my schoolwork improved and come September first 2086 I found myself wearing a blue tie, speeding across the countryside on my way back to Hogwarts. I like to pretend I got to Hogwarts on my own, but I think it was Q and Mum who somehow made me think I wanted it. Certainly I used it as an excuse to get as far away from Q as possible. Basically, I won’t bore you with Hogwarts details, I think I’ll tell you that another time. What I came here to say is that I’m good. I’m good, Jake. I can honestly say that with everything that I’ve got. I have friends, best friends, I have a new girlfriend, Suri’s going with me to Hogwarts next term, I’m in a band, Mum’s going to be promoted to a Professor. I’m still going to be an Auror just like I told you seven years ago, I was made Prefect for my last term and I can cast a corporeal patronus at long last. It’s a wolf, by the way. Mum helped me with it. It’s big and shaggy and everything I hoped it would be. I’m going to get it tattooed on my back at the festival I’m going to with Noel, Hayley and Evie. It’s been a bumpy ride Jake, but I’m finally good. I’m fine. You’re not here, and that’s okay. I still miss you, but it’s okay. I’ll love you forever and it’s still okay. I have to head back now, I’ve got a date. I’m going to break the news that I made Prefect to Evie. I think I might get Suri to bake the badge in a cake and have Evie find it like that. Hopefully she doesn’t swallow it. I don’t know when I’ll be back, and that’s okay too. Send my regards to Aunt Nina, Lucas and Alice and tell those two to stop smirking like that, I can feel their smug satisfaction all the way over here and it’s annoying. Love you all. Miss you like always. Bye." __________________ yeah I like tеlling stories________________________ but I don't have to write them in ink_____ _____________I could still change the end Last edited by Daemon; 08-18-2015 at 07:51 PM.