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Tazenhani · 07-10-2015, 05:08 AM

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Originally Posted by Felixir

Toby wasn't quite sure what kind of reaction he had been expecting, but when Dakest started laughing, he knew that this wasn't it.

He looked at the professor, blinking, utterly confused, trying to work out what was so funny. Dakest's words didn't really shed much light on the matter, though at the comment about the patronus, Toby couldn't help but feel like maybe he was being mocked. Which hurt, if it were true. IF it were true. If.

It was a conflicting set of feelings. Because the fact of the matter was that even though the automatic response to being laughed at was to feel hurt, Toby's brain had a way of trying to block that sort of thing out and find a positive spin, where possible. It was a skill that got more difficult as he grew older, but was still very much there. This time, Toby zeroed in on the fact that laughing meant happiness and if he'd made someone laugh, even by accident or if they were laughing at him, that was a good thing, because he'd made them happy. Whatever it was that was funny, Toby didn't believe (or didn't want to believe; for him they were the same thing) that Dakest would ever really be mean, so that, at least, was okay.

Toby was just considering laughing along too, when the clap on the back got his attention, and the statement about 'potential' caught him off guard once more. Toby watched as Dakest walked away, then quickly hurried to catch up with him. He thought about saying 'It's my potential and I'll deny if I want to,' but very quickly pushed that random thought away. This was srs bizniz. "Denying my potential never hurt me before," was what Toby said instead, but then faltered. "... I don't think so, anyway." Or had it? Merlin only knew.

When Professor Dakest stopped, Toby did too, and automatically he started to bite at his fingernails again, hardly realising he was doing it.

"I..." he said, then paused, stalling for a moment longer as he looked out over the grounds, the glanced in the direction of Javy's office. Sometimes it was hard to say what he wanted, and he'd learnt not to really do that, with the odd exception. Still, it had been a direct question, hadn't it? Toby refocused his attention back on Dakest. "I... well, yeah, I do. Yeah, I mean..." It took a lot of mental energy to keep from trying to go back in the other direction again. This was the truth, sooooo... "Yeah."

It was a relief the boy hadn't looked hurt about the laughing, otherwise Sabel's guilty conscience might have kicked in. Might have. Might have realized how much like Damien he was becoming. And then there would have been two unhappy blokes in the barn.

The thought was creeping in, but it was given little time or attention as Toby's words had him thinking down a completely different path. Perhaps it hadn't hurt him. Perhaps it had protected him. And now what? He was offering to undo that protection, in the effort to strengthen it?

Sometimes, oftentimes, he was convinced Auror's shouldn't be in the position to teach students, let alone children.

But Toby wanted his help. His answer had been a 'yes'. Sabel considered that for a moment before nodding slightly. Toby would be graduating soon, no longer a student, no longer a child. Perhaps it was time to start treating him as such.

Turning, he held out his hand to seal the deal in a shake. "Then you have it."

07-10-2015, 05:08 AM	#147 (permalink)
Tazenhani DMLE & DoM Doxy Join Date: Oct 2009 Posts: 6,150 Hogwarts RPG Name: Amur Neverwinter Fourth Year	~ Rise and Rise Again, Until Lambs become Lions ~ SPOILER!!: XD We love you both XD Quote: Originally Posted by Felixir Toby wasn't quite sure what kind of reaction he had been expecting, but when Dakest started laughing, he knew that this wasn't it. He looked at the professor, blinking, utterly confused, trying to work out what was so funny. Dakest's words didn't really shed much light on the matter, though at the comment about the patronus, Toby couldn't help but feel like maybe he was being mocked. Which hurt, if it were true. IF it were true. If. It was a conflicting set of feelings. Because the fact of the matter was that even though the automatic response to being laughed at was to feel hurt, Toby's brain had a way of trying to block that sort of thing out and find a positive spin, where possible. It was a skill that got more difficult as he grew older, but was still very much there. This time, Toby zeroed in on the fact that laughing meant happiness and if he'd made someone laugh, even by accident or if they were laughing at him, that was a good thing, because he'd made them happy. Whatever it was that was funny, Toby didn't believe (or didn't want to believe; for him they were the same thing) that Dakest would ever really be mean, so that, at least, was okay. Toby was just considering laughing along too, when the clap on the back got his attention, and the statement about 'potential' caught him off guard once more. Toby watched as Dakest walked away, then quickly hurried to catch up with him. He thought about saying 'It's my potential and I'll deny if I want to,' but very quickly pushed that random thought away. This was srs bizniz. "Denying my potential never hurt me before," was what Toby said instead, but then faltered. "... I don't think so, anyway." Or had it? Merlin only knew. When Professor Dakest stopped, Toby did too, and automatically he started to bite at his fingernails again, hardly realising he was doing it. "I..." he said, then paused, stalling for a moment longer as he looked out over the grounds, the glanced in the direction of Javy's office. Sometimes it was hard to say what he wanted, and he'd learnt not to really do that, with the odd exception. Still, it had been a direct question, hadn't it? Toby refocused his attention back on Dakest. "I... well, yeah, I do. Yeah, I mean..." It took a lot of mental energy to keep from trying to go back in the other direction again. This was the truth, sooooo... "Yeah." It was a relief the boy hadn't looked hurt about the laughing, otherwise Sabel's guilty conscience might have kicked in. Might have. Might have realized how much like Damien he was becoming. And then there would have been two unhappy blokes in the barn. The thought was creeping in, but it was given little time or attention as Toby's words had him thinking down a completely different path. Perhaps it hadn't hurt him. Perhaps it had protected him. And now what? He was offering to undo that protection, in the effort to strengthen it? Sometimes, oftentimes, he was convinced Auror's shouldn't be in the position to teach students, let alone children. But Toby wanted his help. His answer had been a 'yes'. Sabel considered that for a moment before nodding slightly. Toby would be graduating soon, no longer a student, no longer a child. Perhaps it was time to start treating him as such. Turning, he held out his hand to seal the deal in a shake. "Then you have it." __________________ I've got a fire for a heart._________________________________________________ I'm not scared of the dark._________________________________________ _______________________________________You've never seen it look so easy.