"I am well aware of how lucky I am to have what I have, Benjamin Romulus. Well aware and am reminded every day. But yes, right now I think giving mother what she wants and getting away from this place would be better right now." Hmph. Yes, he did. Benjy didn't get it. Feeling Benjy's hand on his shoulder he tensed and pulled out of his reach as he indeed turned to face him, pain clear on his face. He was really miserable here.

"She would not, Benjy. Not for my being unhappy." Now if Benjy was unhappy then yes he would likely go home. His aunt did indeed take her son's feelings into account. Whether Benjy realized that or not. "I like our library." And yes, he mumbled that, but it was true. He felt at home in the library in the house. It was peaceful.

"Father doesn't pay me enough attention to even care, Benjy." Really. He didn't. "With you it's different, Benjy and you know it. Not to mention I just don't understand... I am overly nice to everyone I meet here. Aside from Beezus. I just don't care for her or care what she thinks." Truth.

And Hogwarts was abysmal, not just shabby and Father would not approve of it if he told him anything of it.

"Enough." He had met enough of them. Yep. "I like her a whole lot, Benjy, but..." Shrugs. He was not going to fight with people that Lotus cares for just because it was not acceptable.

Hearing Benjy say that last bit made him shuffle his feet and look at the ground. "I know. Feels like you're the only one. I wish she cared a little, too."