letter two: the tower starts falling

And it was time Lily! Hogwarts at last! We felt so grown up and rejuvenated as the years turned into a year and that year turned into a month. Anticipation clawed us from the inside out and we found ourselves smiling so wide the ocean couldn't touch our grins. It felt magical and wonderful. Those summers were the best summers of my life.

And then... it happened. The day were everything was finally coming together. It was time to find the platform and then the large scarlet train . I remember how grown up you felt at the time, and how little we looked with our luggage trailing dangerously behind us. Whoever thought to give small children giant luggage bags was not the smartest.

Anyway, facing all of these children, I felt a little sick. Why? Because again, I was the boy with the greasy black hair and you were the beautiful red-head with the shining star smile. I personally knew how cruel kids could be, and while I was scared for myself, I had no fear for you. You were smart and quick, and even though you were small, I figured you shouldn't have trouble.

The sorting hat put you into Gryffindor, and as you passed my table at the sorting hat ceremony I smiled politely. However, I don't know if you noticed Lily, but my smile was faked. I didn't know how much I'd see you now, and that scared me. You were my only friend, and losing my only friend would be like losing the one person you care for.

I'm not sure why I'm writing this now, more than ten years later, cooped up in my office with a rainstorm raging about outside. You're happy with James, and I'm happy alone, I guess. It gives me an unlimited amount of time to focus on my teachings, and the kids aren't always horrible. However, I guess sometimes it's good to get things out and in the open, even at a horribly inconvient time. Maybe I'm going back to our childish whims of weaving the other with sensitive information and whether or not you truly care to read it is out of the question.

you never left my side, even when James bullied me and the kids were cruel. You always offered a smile, even when I had none to give back. And for that I thank you.

Sincerely~
Serveus Snape