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Magical Soul · 07-13-2012, 05:09 PM

Text Cut: Adam

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Originally Posted by Wonderstruck

Adam managed to pull his eyes upwards after he had gotten out the hi that sounded more like someone choked it out of him than anything else. He wished that it had been more confident sounding but then again to have expected anything to come out confident sounding or for their first encounter since that day in the great hall to go smoothly or unawkwardly was just completely unrealistic and naive. People didn't just recover or forget exchanges like that, and Adam believed that that was really the first time that Louisa and Paulie had both witnessed the anger management problems that Adam insisted that he had, but he had a feeling his friends never really believed. The truth was Adam was angry. A lot. And all the time. And no matter how many times he tried to rid himself of it, it was never really gone. It was always just below the surface waiting for the right opportunity or motive to rear its head. And up until that day at the great hall Adam had found joy in knowing that Louisa and Paulie were two people that could push that side of him down.

He watched as Louisa turned, not realizing that she had moved away from him slightly. She had probably done it while his eyes were directed towards the ground and not her face. Never in his life had he encountered such a painful silence that instinctively Adam found himself holding his breath, waiting to see if she was going to respond. He wouldn't blame her if she didn't. After all he had been the one to tell her that he never wanted to see her face again. At the time it had been true, and for a while after it had been true, but now it wasn't. He had pretty much given up hope and was about to turn to go into the library when he heard the words come out of her mouth. She hadn't looked up at all, but she had definitely spoken hi back to him, and he was pretty sure her hi sounded just as strained as his.

"Louisa..." Adam started, the words still not coming out very loud. "I...I've missed you."

... he spoke. To her. He spoke to her! And no, it wasn't just any random casual words, he'd missed her? He missed her?! If he, the one who issued the order of them staying apart all this time, had missed what should she, who just succumbed to his wish, say or express how she was feeling? Louisa opened her mouth to say that she missed him more, but it only came out as a whimper making her to quickly purse her lips together and wiping at her dry eyes to force them NOT to tear up.

Although that built up fortress of emotions could scramble down now that he decided to open up a bit... Louisa could let it go and open her emotions as well, only there would be a lot of tears and sore throat issues. She swallowed the lump and tried again, careful not to lift her face but keep it hidden as much as possible. "I'm so sorry, Adam. I don't want you to hate me forever..." she sniffed, "I understand your anger and hurt but please... don't hate me forever." OH AND "Don't hate Paulie ever. It was all me." She wasn't one to play hero or victim, and the Gryffindor should know this. Louisa was always a girl of facts and logic. So yeah... she was saying he shouldn't hate his best mate on her account but he could hate her for the time being.

Although you don't say 'I missed you' to someone who hate. So he didn't even hate her... that made the lump in her throat grow even bigger, how come both of Adam and Paulie can't do this one thing for her? Display hatred toward her foolish acts? Consider this her punishment that would force her not to fall into her reckless decisions. But no, they had to be this good and not hate her.

Well she hated herself. There. Problem solved.

07-13-2012, 05:09 PM	#125 (permalink)
Magical Soul Kappa Join Date: Jun 2010 Location: GMT +3 Posts: 14,517 x6	Dalliesa \| Ab-Bot \| Hogwarts Trojan War \| Text Cut: Adam Quote: Originally Posted by Wonderstruck Adam managed to pull his eyes upwards after he had gotten out the hi that sounded more like someone choked it out of him than anything else. He wished that it had been more confident sounding but then again to have expected anything to come out confident sounding or for their first encounter since that day in the great hall to go smoothly or unawkwardly was just completely unrealistic and naive. People didn't just recover or forget exchanges like that, and Adam believed that that was really the first time that Louisa and Paulie had both witnessed the anger management problems that Adam insisted that he had, but he had a feeling his friends never really believed. The truth was Adam was angry. A lot. And all the time. And no matter how many times he tried to rid himself of it, it was never really gone. It was always just below the surface waiting for the right opportunity or motive to rear its head. And up until that day at the great hall Adam had found joy in knowing that Louisa and Paulie were two people that could push that side of him down. He watched as Louisa turned, not realizing that she had moved away from him slightly. She had probably done it while his eyes were directed towards the ground and not her face. Never in his life had he encountered such a painful silence that instinctively Adam found himself holding his breath, waiting to see if she was going to respond. He wouldn't blame her if she didn't. After all he had been the one to tell her that he never wanted to see her face again. At the time it had been true, and for a while after it had been true, but now it wasn't. He had pretty much given up hope and was about to turn to go into the library when he heard the words come out of her mouth. She hadn't looked up at all, but she had definitely spoken hi back to him, and he was pretty sure her hi sounded just as strained as his. "Louisa..." Adam started, the words still not coming out very loud. "I...I've missed you." ... he spoke. To her. He spoke to her! And no, it wasn't just any random casual words, he'd missed her? He missed her?! If he, the one who issued the order of them staying apart all this time, had missed what should she, who just succumbed to his wish, say or express how she was feeling? Louisa opened her mouth to say that she missed him more, but it only came out as a whimper making her to quickly purse her lips together and wiping at her dry eyes to force them NOT to tear up. Although that built up fortress of emotions could scramble down now that he decided to open up a bit... Louisa could let it go and open her emotions as well, only there would be a lot of tears and sore throat issues. She swallowed the lump and tried again, careful not to lift her face but keep it hidden as much as possible. "I'm so sorry, Adam. I don't want you to hate me forever..." she sniffed, "I understand your anger and hurt but please... don't hate me forever." OH AND "Don't hate Paulie ever. It was all me." She wasn't one to play hero or victim, and the Gryffindor should know this. Louisa was always a girl of facts and logic. So yeah... she was saying he shouldn't hate his best mate on her account but he could hate her for the time being. Although you don't say 'I missed you' to someone who hate. So he didn't even hate her... that made the lump in her throat grow even bigger, how come both of Adam and Paulie can't do this one thing for her? Display hatred toward her foolish acts? Consider this her punishment that would force her not to fall into her reckless decisions. But no, they had to be this good and not hate her. Well she hated herself. There. Problem solved.