His lack of reaction to her touch caused yet another shiver to shoot through her body and she literally felt like it was tearing apart. He wasn't responding to her...to anything she was saying. It was terrifying.

You don't know what you want, Kurumi.

His words cut through her like a warm knife in butter, tearing right into her very soul and causing her to gasp. Her eyes widened and the tears that had paused briefly returned. Her voice had gone again and all she could do was hold on to his hand. The hand that she was not going to let go of until he told her to. Until he forced her to. When he continued his thoughts, Kurumi felt her heart breaking even more, shattering into pieces and she feared that her entire body was soon going to follow. The color of her hair turned even more sickly and she whimpered his name again.

Was Lewis right? Did she still want Jonathan to have feelings for her? In a sense, yes, she did. She still wanted him to consider her a part of his life and not completely shut her out. But it was nothing like what Lewis was implying. Nothing. Why couldn't he see that? Why wouldn't he believe her.

Quite suddenly, Kurumi sat up and removed her hand from his as she began to fumble with something on the back of her neck. Her hands were shaking so much right now that it was a struggle to find the clasp and even when she did her fingers continued to slip as she tried to civilly undo the silver chain that now felt like it was digging into her neck.

After several excruciating moments where Kurumi's vision was blinded by her tears, Kurumi held up the necklace in front of her face and didn't even look at it. No. Her eyes were entirely on Lewis right now because he was all that mattered. Her heart pounding in her chest, Kurumi swallowed and tried to ignore the way her chest was feeling so constricted that it was hard to breathe. "BAKA!" she shouted in frustration as she cast the necklace aside. It ended up bouncing against the cold floor, making soft pinging sounds that ended up echoing throughout the entire bathroom. "I chose you, Lewis. Ever since last term...it has always been you."

Her tears had seemingly stopped for the time being. Crying wasn't going to help anything. It never did. Her body was still shaking now and her hand felt both hot and cold without his touch. She wanted to reach out to him again, hold some part of him...but he kept slipping away. Away from her and she was petrified that it seemed like there was no getting him back.

"Yes, I still feel something for him...but I won't always," she murmured, biting down hard on her lip as she continued to gaze into Lewis' eyes. "Because...because what I feel for you....is so much stronger..." She shivered again as those unspoken words resurfaced in her eyes. Words that she wanted desperately to say to him...but now wasn't sure she ever would be able to...now he might not let her say them.

"Why won't you believe me, Lewis?" The tears were forming again in her eyes and she ended up hugging herself just so she had something to do with her hands. What else did he want her to say? What else could she say? Did he honestly not believe or forget everything they had been through? Everything she had said to him? Everything he had said to her? "Why are you trying to push me away now? W-What do you want..."