”Didn’t seem that way?” Was he even serious? ”That I thought I’d lost you and…and acted foolishly because of it?” Actually, upon reflection, she was pretty sure she acted upset. So whatever Treyen was talking about seemed completely invalid. ”However it seemed…I…thought I’d lost you…. Again.” To the same girl that tore them apart before. Ellie wasn’t blaming Kurumi, though, in any way, because she knew the Gryffindor had nothing to do with either of these cases. She was just like…a common factor.

HE was being quite quiet now. When he shook his head, she squinted her eyes in confusion. Because she wasn’t sure why he was doing so. But he’d explain.

And when he didn’t, Ellie kept her mouth shut. If he didn’t want to say anything…she wasn’t going to.

Her entire body stiffened when Treyen joined her, and she decided to watch him without directly looking at him. She couldn’t explain why she felt this way, but for whatever reason she was afraid her gaze would evoke more horrible things to be said.

And her stomach sunk again. She could see how he’d think that. And it sounded completely logical. But she didn’t feel like that was the correct explanation for her actions. But she couldn’t defend herself. She just didn’t know how to articulate what she felt. ”I didn’t mean it like that, I swear.” She didn’t know how she meant it, though. ”I’m so sorry.” She lifted her blurry, bloodshot, still tearing eyes up to him. So. Sorry.

Sniff.

Ellie shrugged. Again, she wasn’t sure which words to use to explain herself. It was extremely frustrating. Maybe she should think about picking up a book every once in a while. Expand her vocabulary. ”I guess…I didn’t want to say anything that would…spark the thought. To plant the idea.” And have him believe it himself. That he actually could do better. She wanted him to stay with her. Even if it was selfish to say or think. Even if she did want him to be happy no matter what. She desperately wanted him to be happy with her. Because she sincerely believed she would only be happy with him.

She stiffened again at his touch. Just only for a moment. Quickly she relaxed because the feeling was so familiar and comfortable.

That didn’t last long either.

‘You made it extremely hard for me today.’ Ellie bowed her head, sobbing again. ”I’m such a monster.” It was true. She was beyond a horrible person. She couldn’t even be considered a ‘person’ anymore.