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At first Ellie's actor comment confused Dallin. What did that have to do with anything? But then she continued, and he realized what she was talking about. Right. Dallin was a good actor, wasn't he?
With a sigh, he looked at Ellie. He actually met her eyes, which was a surprise to him. "Okay." He bit his lip, trying to think about what he said before he said it. "I am a good actor," Wait for it, "because I wasn't happy. And that..." He groaned quietly. Kissing Vashti? "Was a huge mistake. I don't even know why I did it. I just... wanted to..." He paused, biting his lip. Honesty was the best policy, right? "I wanted to make you jealous, I think. But I shouldn't have. And you have no idea how bad I feel about it. I haven't gotten the chance to apologize to Vashti for it... but I want to. If she'll ever talk to me again." He still didn't know if the Head Girl would be too freaked out by him to ever come near him again.
"I'm sorry," he said quietly, and frowned. That was the best he could do. He didn't know what else to say. "I'm just really sorry."
As Dallin started talking again, Ellie frowned a little bit. He was a good actor because he wasn't happy. Which Ellie knew now. She should have known, really, that he was unhappy. They dated for two years and Ellie couldn't tell that the love of her life wasn't happy? That was kind of sad.
At least he admitted that kissing Vashti was a huge mistake. Ellie was relieved that he thought so. She looked back at her cold hands and rubbed them together to try and warm them up. Hopefully Vashti would forgive Dallin because it wasn't really his fault. If Louisa was right, which she had been lately, it was Ellie's fault that Dallin felt like he had to kiss someone to make her jealous. Vashti just happened to be there.
For a moment, Ellie didn't know what to say. But when he apologized, she did.
"No, no... Don't be sorry, Dallin. None of this would have happened if I hadn't have dumped you." Dumped was kind of a harsh word. Buuuut she already said it.
"I'm sorry, okay? It's my fault..." Her voice was kind of quiet now. As she looked up at him again, Ellie kind of just wanted to tackle him. This was the first functional conversation they had had in a while. Ellie missed him. And everything they used to be.