Originally Posted by Jezabel Black

Jez held Nate's gaze, a thing she always found hard. Her eyes were usually the weakest point in her wall, and having someone else look into them made her feel vulnerable. He was using the soft voice again. The one that always melted her resolution. This time it wouldn't work, she wouldn't let it work ... "You look like Than," said Jez quietly. Bon voyage resolution - again. "I keep seeing him in you, and it's ... I don't know." She loved it about Nate, but at the same time it was unbearable. She knew she was being stupid, and if they had been anywhere else she would have made like a hippogriff and run. But they were on a train in a little compartment, and she didn't have anywhere to run. So she just let it spill out. "I just keep seeing them dead, and wondering how Than killed Dad, and what would happen if Keegan died because I bet Des wouldn't take custody of me, and what would have happened if I'd just let Than live again, and if Jared had killed you or Pam in Diagon Alley because that was my fault, what if it happens again?!" Jez was speaking in a rush, trying to get everything out before she either lost her nerve and put her wall up again or burst into tears. "What if it's yours or Pam's parents next? You'd both hate me if something happened to them and it was my fault!" A lump in her throat stopped Jez from saying anything more, so she just stared helplessly at Nate.