Momentarily pulling his head out of his liquid memories, Severus leaned all himself against its stone rim as his mind swam in a thick purple haze. Had he known that that day, seeing Lily walk away from him in that way with HIM following after, that it would be the first of many...he would have done something different. Would have said something. Reached out for her. Punched James square in his arrogant nose.

Her lifeless eyes flashed in front of his, threatening to break him again. Not wanting the emptiness to haunt him anymore, Severus dunked his head in once more.