Originally Posted by sarahlooo

Okay so Ellie was a little confused now. Because she thought Dallin was upset about what Ellie had told him. At least, that's what it seemed like to her. Ellie looked at him while he spoke, explaining that everything was okay. And then she kind of felt stupid for trying to mend everything she said, even if there wasn't much need for mending. But, whatever. Her answer surprised him? That seemed kind of silly. Why would it be surprising that she enjoyed her last relationship? But, no... She wasn't going to ask that.

Taking the hand-squeeze as an invitation to begin talking, Ellie took a deep breath. She briefly considered changing her mind. It was his birthday after all, but she had already began. She couldn't let herself drop the subject now. "I don't know how... how you'll take this. It could be bad, or it could be... okay." Because "good" probably wasn't likely. Ellie huffed out a breath of air and looked down, and around and anywhere but at Dallin while she spoke. "Over the summer, Chandler and I went with Alex to his house, in New York. Alex's house, that is. We all had a blast, but as the days went on, it seemed like Alex wasn't always around. So a lot of the time it was just Chandler and me." Ellie looked at the floor and cleared her throat. "One day, Chandler asked me if I liked him. As more than a friend... In retrospect, I was an idiot. I really was." She let out a little humorless laugh and shook her head. "He told me that he liked me too, in that way." Pausing, Ellie considered what the best way to say the next part was. "Eventually, we left New York. Chandler and I, we never.. did anything, not even kiss. I don't even think we hugged. But for some reason, the guilt was killing Chandler and he... He told Alex." She paused again for a moment, staring into the fire. "Naturally, he freaked out. There was a lot of yelling and terrible things said... But he couldn't forgive me, and neither could I. I was stupid and we both knew it. Eventually, that "break" turned into the final cut. And we were done." Ellie bit the inside of her cheek and nodded slowly.

Ellie tentatively raised her eyes to Dallin's, to see his face. His reaction. And honestly, she was scared to death.