Nessie POV:

God, how could I have been such an idiot! He's my best friend and I kissed him like a horny teenager. I pulled back away from him and stared into his beautiful eyes. His eyes were wide, full of surprise. Oh god! The pit twisted in my stomach and I had the sudden urge that I would be sick. I put my hand to my mouth and willed the tiles to stop spinning beneath me.

"Ness, I-I'm sorry." My head snapped in his direction. Tears pricked at my eyes and blurred my vision. He regrets the kiss. I knew he would. God, why did I kiss him? I felt like I had been stabbed in my stomach and the knife is being twisted slowly ripping my insides apart. No, I can't cry in front of him. I jumped up and ran away from him. Sure, it was a childish thing to do but I needed to get away. I need to cry and get it out of my system. I only vaguely heard Cedric call for me as I ran down the corridor. When I got to the bathroom I found an empty stall and locked myself in it. I rested my head on the stall wall and started balling my eyes out.

I'm so stupid! How could I have ever thought he would be interested in me in that way? How can we ever go on from this? Will there always be that lasting awkwardness between us? Maybe if I ignore this ever happened, we will eventually move on and we'll be like we used to be. It's not the brightest plan but if I work at it I'm sure everything will resolve itself. By the time I had run out of tears, I was set on my plan. Wiping the remaining tears off my cheeks, I left the stall. Looking in the mirror, I hardly recognized the figure staring back at me. She looked completely heartbroken. Her eyes were red and puffy, her cheeks tear stained, and her eyes - her eyes were dull and lifeless. Realizing that the figure in the mirror was me, I turned around and left the bathroom as quickly as possible.

When I entered the Grand Hall, Cedric looked towards me, pleading with his eyes for me to come to him. I slowly shook my head. I don't think I can handle sitting next to him right now. I sat down at the end of the Hufflepuff table, next to a seventh year who looked at me oddly when I sat down. I piled my plate with a few items to keep up appearances but didn't eat any of it. Typically ,I would eat but I don't think I my stomach can handle it. A throat cleared across the table from me. I looked up to see a familiar dark haired, dark eyed man.

"He's an idiot you know," He said offhandedly, sticking some food into his mouth. I raised an eyebrow at him.

"What are you talking about?" I asked staring at him. He seemed so familiar. Where have I seen him before?

"Your boyfriend. He's an idiot for breaking up with you. Any guy would be lucky to have you you know." My eye brows furrowed.

"What the hell are you talking about?" I asked. He sighed clearly frustrated. He pinched the bridge of his nose and took a deep breath in.

"That bloke . . . Diggory what's-his-name," He said waving his hand. He is seriously starting to tick me off. Suddenly I remembered where I had seen him before. He was in my Divination class in my first year! He was the jerk!

"His name is Cedric. And he's not my boyfriend." I hissed leaning closer to him. "And I honestly think it's none of your business. So butt out!" He leaned closer to me as if he wanted to tell me a secret, I leaned back away from him. He looked off to the side then back to me and raised an eyebrow.

"It's my business when your boyfriend keeps sending those lost puppy looks in our direction. It's really annoying. But you know what? He doesn't deserve you so I find it quite amusing." I gritted my teeth together and bit the inside of my cheek to keep me from lashing out at him. I looked toward Cedric, and indeed he was looking at us but there was no so called lost puppy looks on his face, just pure fury. I turned back to the *** and glared at the amused look on his face.

"He's. Not. My. Boyfriend." I hissed between my clenched teeth. Underneath the table I clenched my fists so tight my knuckles turned white. He raised another condescending eyebrow.

"Nessie - It is Nessie right? There are many more men that are more deserving of you than him." He said. I raised an eyebrow at him sarcastically.

"You among them?" I asked sarcastically. He smirked and grabbed my hand. I immediately snapped my hand back under the table while continuing to glare at him.

"At the very top babe." I snorted at his cockiness.

"Look, as interesting as this conversation is, I'm going to leave before I feel entitled to file a restraining order on you," I said before getting up and leaving the Grand Hall. I quickly headed to the Hufflepuff common room and sat down on the couch, rubbing my temples. Suddenly the couch sank and someone's hand touched my thigh. I sighed. Can't he take the hint? I don't like him.

"I'm going to give you ten seconds to get your paws off me before I rip them off and place them on my mantle at home. Ten . . . nine . . . eight. . ." His hand quickly left my thigh.

"Ness it's me . . . Ced. I understand that you don't want to see me. I was a complete and total tool. I shouldn't have attacked you like that. I'm sorry . . . can we talk about it?" My eyes snapped open and I looked at Cedric. I didn't want to do this now. Not now. I stood up and with a fake yawn, I looked at my watch.

"Gosh Ced, I'm tired can we do this some other time?" For good measure I yawned again and started heading up towards the stairs. Cedric grabbed my hand and spun me around.

"Ness, I need to know . . . Are we good?" I sighed and nodded.

"Yeah Ced, we're good." He let go of my hand and smiled as he breathed out a held breath. I turned around and headed up to the girl's dorm.

That was the last time we ever spoke of the kiss.