Nika nodded and started absentmindedly dipping her fork into the mashed potatoes on her plate. She was starting to regret saying that she hated Emily because she really didn't, but at the time she was really angry. She didn't plan on talking to Emily for a long time because she had really been hurt with everything this term. Nika glanced over at the Gryffindor table and could see Cove sitting there talking to Emily. Whatever they were talking about Nika had a feeling that she was the main topic. Note to self, People to avoid on train: Cove and Emily. She crossed two fingers under the table in hope that there wouldn't have to be any more additions to her list. She really felt awful for even planning this out, but there was no way that Cove was going to guilt her into friendship.

"But she's going to." Nika added silently. She looked up at Samira as little tears started to form in her own eyes. Taking a few deep breaths she managed to hold them back for the time being. "Well, erm. You see... We had this big fight at the beginning of the term after she told me she was leaving. I avoided her and then she came looking for me and there was some yelling involved." That had been an awful day and Samira knew that because she got stuck with the waterworks.

"I sorta ran away from her like I did in the common room because I just didn't want to talk to her because I was going to break down into tears. So I went up to the dormitories and sorta ripped out all of my songs that I wrote up." She got the full blast of regret after doing it too because she actually did like her songs. "She was hiding in the library all term trying to avoid me as I tried to avoid her. We saw each other for the first time in such a long time at the table and I still wasn't really ready to talk." That had been stupid on her part.

"I tried keeping the conversation short because we hadn't really officially 'made up' after our fight and all." Then comes the worst part. "Then she started talking about how great france was going to be because she found this great library and it sounded as if she wasn't going to miss me at all. She knows how upset I was but she still rubbed it in my face." Nika looked down at her plate and then up again. "Then I got mad." Nika started blushing as she played with the mashed potatoes. "Then she tried to push me even further by saying that she wasn't going to get my hopes up and that's when it went to far. I walked away," Stormed away... ,"Told her I was glad she was leaving and came here."

So she had sort of looked like a villain in this fight too. "We were both stupid, but I've been through so much and it just hurts so bad! I can't make up with her after that. I'm not ready." She looked at Samira in hope that her snake friend wouldn't make her go back and apologize. She really just wanted to be able to sit and be carefree again. She thought it was hard in first year saying bye to Rex and Halle well this was ten times worse than that.