 Fortress of Brilliance ღ Mommy Quad
No, he hadn't been hit in the head. No potions, either. Legend was just trying to torture her. Despite the fact Katie would have rather not have known he felt that way after the.. incident, or felt like she would have rather not have known, there was a part of her that had to respect that. It was the same thing she was doing, wasn't it? Why she had asked him to meet her here? So that she could be honest and tell him what she needed to say, what she thought was the right thing to do. That didn't make it any easier to hear, but.. it was what it was. Like it or not.
And Katie did not. Why was he telling her this? She didn't want to know anything more than she already did. She didn't want to know how he felt about another girl or why he kissed her. Katie didn't want to talk about it at all. This was not why she had wanted to meet with him, she didn't want to know in great detail what happened or discuss it or anything. In fact, she wanted to drop the entire subject right then and there, but Legend continued to speak and for the life of her, Katie couldn't make a sound, couldn't snap at him or tell him to just stop or even get up and leave. It was as if something was holding her into place.. maybe it was herself. Maybe she was her own worst enemy. When he tried to say that Neptune didn't like him and trailed off on second thought, the young woman let out a breath she hadn't realized she had been holding and turned her head enough to sort of glare at him before redirecting her gaze once again, further away. The tears she had known were coming and had tried fighting off had swelled in her dark eyes, just waiting to spill over as she took a shaky deep breath, still trying in vain to soothe herself. "I don't want to know this! You can be with whoever you want and if she makes you so happy then be with her, Legend!" Finally, she snapped. It wasn't the usual angry Katie snapping, but more of a desperate, at-the-end-of-her-rope-with-nowhere-to-go cry. Rubbing the sleeve of her robe roughly over her cheek to wipe an escaped tear, and then mimicking the motion on the other side of her face as another fell, Katie sighed. "How am I suppose to feel when you kiss her, and then tell me that you still love me? That you have feelings for both of us? I don't want to know that. Don't tell me that." That made it feel.. fake. Like the time they had been together wasn't real at all, or that how they felt wasn't as strong of feelings as they'd thought before. At the very least, Katie didn't want to feel as if that had all been a joke or another stupid teenage error.
He loved her. And missed her. And they had clearly all come to realize on their own that being friends wasn't working. Legend had successfully taken her off course with her planned out talk, and Katie had never felt more lost than she did in this moment. She knew what she thought was for the best. She also knew it felt as though they were in, or beginning, to run in circles. Maybe they always had been, and she just never noticed until now. Katie burried her face in her arms for a long moment, at a loss of what to say and finding it hard to pull together thoughts, the tears continuing to make salty trails down her face until she pushed herself upright again and turned her head to look at Legend. "I can't.. I can't keep doing this, Legend. I can't. This wasn't the point!"
__________________
Dream. Try. Do Good.
I love you all,
Class dismissed. |