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As much as he wanted to go over to her, to comfort her, he couldn't. The pain and the fear and the anger had his body rooted, while at the same time ready to simply give in and shut down. He honestly didn't know what to say to her in response, what he was supposed to do or change when he was trying his hardest to do what was right.
A weak, defeated shrug left his shoulders, matching the agonized expression on his face. "And now. Do you regret it?" Another pained shrug of his shoulder. "Would it be easier that when I leave, I leave for good? Disappear from your life for forever? Would that...ease the pain?" It would kill him, but if that was what she wanted, she wouldn't see him again.
She gave her head a small shake before turning it so her cheek rested on her knees, wiping a few tears away in the process.
"No, I don't regret one bit of it." She wasn't sure he'd heard her what with how quiet her voice was, but the fatigue that was following the pain and anger she was holding kept her from repeating herself.
Choking back a sob, she bit down on her bottom lip to keep it from wibbling, to contain the new pain he'd drawn from her. Only once she'd gotten herself a bit more composed, did she speak through the pain.
"No... it'd rip my heart out." Even now, just the thought of never seeing him again was tearing her apart.
"Do you not want to do this any more? Will it be too hard for you to do this while working?" Would he not be able to make time for her when he was in the ITF?