My first day of Hogwarts. I'm so excited! I woke up early this morning, kissed my mum goodbye and grabbed my bags. I happily apparated to Platform 9 3/4, walking onto the Hogwarts Express for the 2nd time. As I was walking memories went throughout my mind, good and bad. Would this year be as lonely as last year? It couldn't be, I would not allow it at all. While I was walking down the aisle trying to find a compartment..or Patrick, this first year stopped me and asked if I would like to join her. Of course I hesitated, but I ended up sitting there anyways. The First Year's name was Melissa. I'm completely blanking out on her last name right now. Oh well, anyways Melissa seemed very sweet. However I'm not a very big fan of younger children, especially first years. We talked about what we would like to do when we grow up. Melissa, I think, wanted to be an actress. I could picture her being one, however not at the moment. She's too young...well obviously. Haha.

Patrick then found me, interuppting our conversation. I ended up following Patrick into a compartment with two other girls, Slytherins may I add. Their name's were Trixie and Ella. They seemed really nice however Trixie started to tease Patrick about me being his girlfriend. Patrick told them that I wasn't and I was quiet the entire ride. It hurt me so much I got off the train by myself, ignoring them as I got off. I went straight to the Great Hall, Patrick had come over. He told me that he had trouble maintaining relationship and knew that I was jealous. However for him guessing that I was jealous I told him to go back to his girlfriend, Ella, and I walked over to my friend, Chris.

I hadn't seen Chris since last year and I was shocked when he told me that he made Head Boy. I should've known, Chris was always one of the goodie-goodie type guys. Haha. I talked to Chris a little bit and I actually made him blush! It was so funny! I couldn't believe I actually made Chris blush. Hahaha! While I was talking to Chris I saw Ella leave and I knew I had to talk to her sometime. So I bid Chris goodbye and walked down to the Lake.

While I was at the Lake I saw Ella. We had gotten into a huge argument, all because of my jealousy. I know..bad Vanessa; but still Ella made me mad. I ended up breaking down and saying that I wasn't deserving of Patrick, that Ella was deserving of him. I knew that either Patrick had changed or he didn't show me the real him once he visited the mansion. It hurt to see him flirting with every girl that he talked with. It hurt alot. It just so happened that Ella liked him as well. Oh great. End of Day 1.

Day....oh well days don't really matter I guess. So today I went over to the GIANT treehouse because apparently everyone loves it there. Those people were definitley right, it was amazing! I even saw Nikki there! I think we might be best friends now, but who knows? We talked about the usual type of things..boys and the rest of our summer. Haha. I even told Nikki my plan, oh yes my plan to get Patrick. You see there is this guy named Aiden who I accidentally interuppted while he was talking with Ella at the Lake and I've only said hi before to him on the train but that was it. My plan is to ask Aiden to pretend to be my boyfriend to get Patrick jealous, which will make Ella and Trixie jealous as well. It would make Trixie jealous because I think Aiden and Trixie have something going on and Ella..I think has a soft spot for him. So this plan has to work!...Hopefully.

So I told Nikki my plan and she told me that it might make Patrick not like me anymore, if he did like me. Hopefully that won't happen, I mean if he liked me he would stop flirting with every girl he talks to and...act normal! Anyways Nikki and I saw some First Years jumping off one of the platforms of the GIANT treehouse and she asked if I would like to jump off. Of course I said yes but she was just kidding. I ended up going up with her onto the platform and jumping down, onto the ground feeling like I fell into a giant pile of stuffed animals. It was so much fun! Although Nikki got slightly mad but she got over it in like 2 seconds, it was funny. Then we started to explore the GIANT treehouse, walking into a room with millions of butterflies. They were so pretty! Ending up with us leaving to go back to the castle. The start to the day was actually quite fun.

After that I wanted to go back to the common room but I ended up meeting Trixie in one of the corridors. We talked about...boys and things like that. Wow 2nd day of Hogwarts and drama about boys already! This is crazy!...Oh well. Apparently I heard a rumour that Trixie and Aiden kissed! WOAHHH. Oh yes, it was suprising. However they're not together so hopefully my plan will still work. Once I was done talking to Trixie I walked into the Gryffindor Common Room and saw Aiden. I ended up telling him my plan and...he agreed! Although I hope I can trust Aiden alot more than Patrick and hope he won't flirt with anybody while this plan is in progress...then again...never mind.

Day 3 or 4? I'm not really sure. However today was so much fun, no run-ins with anybody well except for Gold but we'll get to that. Oh wait, no there was something bad that happened. You know I still haven't talked to my little sister in forever? I feel horrible about it, I'm the one who's supposed to be protecting her but that usually doesn't happen. I remember one day where we were at home and she said Damon broke up with her. I could tell her little heart had been broken and I tried to help as much as I could. I think it was the only day we actually bonded ever since the divorced between our two parents.

Anyways, onto things much happier, today I walked over to The Whomping Willow with you, LilaDelilah, to write some boring entry. Just kidding, but I still brought you. I was just about to write in you when Gold waved to me and I ended up talking to the 6th Year red-head. She was really nice and we even gave each other nicknames! Her nickname is Goldie and mine is Vanilla. Apparently I'm going to be introduced to this boy named, Xylon. Gold describes him as...very flirty, are all boys like that or something?

The bad part of the day was when I was in The Courtyard and Patrick saw me. We talked for a while and he told me one of his secrets. I really shouldn't be telling you this, however you're just a book, locked up anyways, so I might as well put this in here. Patrick has Type 1 Diabetes, I almost cried when he told me though. Remember Katrina? My muggle friend, how she died from it? I did not want that to happen. After he told me that I told him that Aiden and I were together. He got upset and asked if I was kidding around. I ended up yelling at him and apparently there could've been a chance with him.

How was I supposed to know? He flirted with every girl! Then before he left he threw something at me, that hit me like a wall. He told me that he was trying to be dedicated to something because his parents expected him to be married in four years or so. I messed up, LilaDelilah, and it hurts.

Whichever day it is, I'm not keeping count anymore. I'll just go along with the flow. I actually talked to Bonnie last night and she told me what my mother told her. It hurt me so much to hear this. Apparently my mum said Patrick and I had a ''Falling Out''. Other than that I don't want to talk about it, it hurt too much.

Today I met the boy, Xylon, who Gold was talking about. I accidentally bumped into him, of course, and he almost got mad. You know he is pretty gourgeous than any other boy I've met and he tried to flirt with me, but I told him that Gold told me about him. We had a discussion about it all and we agreed just to be friends. Hopefully that works out between us, he seems nice..if he can control that flirted-ness of his. Oh and he's a 7th year Gryffindor as well, finally another Gryffindor not another Slytherin. Not that I don't like Slytherins, just at the moment I'm having a problem.

After talking to Xylon, I walked over to the Flower Garden. It was so pretty there and you know how much I love flowers...well if you don't, LilaDelilah, you should know. I ended up seeing Olivia! It was great! We talked about what was going on in my life and I ended up figuring out that Olivia and Ella were friends. Oh great. Olivia told me that Ella told her that she was in drama because she liked two guys and these girls liked them. Story of my life. I ended up telling Olivia goodbye and walking to the Wishing Fountain, which I still regret.

Once I was at the Wishing Fountain, almost everyone who was in on this drama was there. I was greeted by a friendly hello by Trixie, Aiden and..Ella, suprisingly. However once Patrick came he gave me a cold look and asked where my boyfriend was. Once I told everybody that Aiden and I were ''together'' now Trixie almost cried, Ella started shouting at Aiden for why he was with me and Patrick...defended me. I was so confused and hurt at that moment. I really wished I could've restarted this entire situation. Maybe being lonely again would do the trick.

I finally brought up the decision of who everyone liked, which I regret again because it all ended up making me hurt more than usual. Aiden said it was obvious he liked me but I knew he was lying, it was just part of the plan. Then Ella said that she liked Aiden and Patrick, not that that was a shocker. Trixie..well I guess she likes Aiden...and Patrick? I'm not sure. Then I decided to be honest, of course which backfired on me. I said I certainly liked someone and then the other I wasn't sure about. I said I liked Aiden but I didn't say that I liked Patrick. So then Patrick answered, he ended up saying that he liked Ella but that he had to move on which made it even worse. I'm so stupid.

Then I joined Trixie who ran off crying and she said that no one liked her and that she was a stupid blonde. How could she say such a thing? She's definitley not stupid and I could tell that Aiden was kind of attracted to her. Nobody likes me and it hurts. How could I think that Patrick would ever like me? I'm regretting this whole plan, which I probably have already told you, LilaDelilah. Help please.