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D.A Forever · 08-30-2008, 10:53 PM

June, 22, 2066

Uhuh.. I'm truly the worst diary owner to ever live. Or Journal, whatever. An empty book with many pages that you fill in, it's all the same. Maybe I should say I'll write again in another six months, then I would be able to say 'Ha! I was early' .. We could hope atleast. That would be the one and only time I bet, too.

So I'm home now. Erhm, not feeling much better than I had on the last day. For one, Alexis and I aren't talking. We haven't stayed upset with one another longer than five minutes maximum, and she's my neighbor, our families are friends.. it's just kinda.. I dunno, I feel weird because of it. Sad, too. I didn't mean to sound the way I know I did, when I told her 'Finally figured it out huh?' I hadn't meant to say it at all. Frederic just had me so mad! I'm no better than him, though. I shouldn't have reacted that way and maybe I shouldn't have tried saying anything to him either.. Lexi was right there and she thinks we're (Frederic and I) sorta 'friends' or atleast she had. Till I asked a stupid question (His bag was making a noise, and I'm not going crazy I think it shifted even the littlest bit!) and how was I suppose to know his temper is the size of a teaspoon? I wasn't expecting him to break the glass he was holding or anything. If I had been, I would have kept my mouth shut. Breaking the cup wasn't the bad part, not really. That was easily put back together. It was the obvious anger he had shown, and that's all it too - Alexis realized we can't stand eachother. After that, everyone went their seperate ways, Ari came with me and we went to talk to Mia, but only Tancred was at the Hufflepuff table. He said we just barely missed her.

I was suppose to sit with them on the train, but I hadn't. I didn't even see them, and that's probably my fault. I wasn't in much of a mood to talk to anyone. I found Joey, and we shared a compartment. He's good company when you just want peace, you know? Joseph didn't push me to talk, but was waiting patiently to listen when I was ready to actually say something, explain why I was in such a gloomy mood.

Coming home, I thought I would be greeted with bright smiling faces and big hugs and excited squeals, but to both Joey and my confusion, everyone looked the way I was feeling. That's when Dad took us in another room, and told us the news. A little less than a month ago my mum's older brother Adrian had died. A potion experiment at work had gone incredibly wrong, and he didn't survive the explosion it caused; He was with us the first three days, but it had done too much damage to his body. Uncle Adrian had always known the risks and dangers of his job, and he had always been the dare-devil type (I think that's where Conner had gotten it from) but nonetheless that didn't prepare any of us for this. And, It gets worse; Mum's baby sister, Grace, and her husband Philip (Tristian and Lima's parents) were in an automobile crash. No one knows why the accident happened, it just did.. and neither made it.

We've already been informed about the current plans, concerning our cousins at least. Samuel, Uncle Adrian's son, is with Aunt Silvia, Uncle Leo and the kids. No one wanted him staying with Step-mum #6, he's known her for maybe eight months. Uncle Adrian and #6 (No I don't know her name! Sam numbers them and so far that works well) were going on two months into their marriage. Sam's family, and he's going to stay close now.

Tristian is an adult, and is a big git as usual. He wants nothing to do with the family even now, it's highly disappointing and honestly, it upsets me. That's NOT how Aunt Grace raised him to be, nor Uncle Philip. That's not okay, it just isn't. But if he ever has a change of heart, everyone will be willing to take him back under the family wings. Because that's what family does, no matter how dumb someone can be being, or mean, we may have our differences but we're still one big huge family and we all love eachother despite our mistakes. Maybe one day Tristian will realize that, personally it seems doubtful but I've been wrong before. I just hope Lima would forgive him, as well.

Speaking of her, Whiggalima is going to come live with us. Madi and I have already started making plans of how to change our bedroom to make her more comfortable since it'll be her room too. She's at Maddox's house for alittle while, but mum's going to pick her up and bring her home when she's done visiting.

Right now, we're in the van on our way to the ministry of magic over here in Italy, where mum works. She's been the head of the International Magical Cooperation Department for years now, since I was around five if I remember right. Anyways, at home our fireplace isn't hooked up to the floo-network, because we're in a muggle neighborhood, we can only have that arranged to work temporarily; it's very risky to, and mum needed to visit her office for a moment to check something over. She's taking a bit of time off work, we're going to use the floo-network there to get to Grandma Angelina's and Grandpa Carl's house. Mum thought it would be a good idea that we stay over there a few nights, and frankly I do too. Mum's been having alot of breakdowns today. How she's made it all this time without crying once I will never know, but it makes me feel bad seeing her like that.

It got to everyone, this morning. We all cried, except Joey but he wasn't home, he had gone to our grandparents house a day early. Now Lydia, Lissy, Gabriel, Julian and Katie are half-asleep in the back seats. Madi, too, beside me. Mum pulled herself together quiet well (though I know her to be a strong woman, so it's not surprising); While we packed our things I could hear her and Dad talking. I know everything will be alright; it's a hundred percent normal to grieve, and right now what we need is to be together. Mum said alot of relatives would be in and out of Grandma Angelina's, too. Not just us. I half wondered if my older siblings would show up too, with their little families alongside.

The next few days will be hard, but with each day things would infact get easier. With each hour, and minute. This just meant.. they were meant for something bigger and better, and they couldn't do that here on earth. Aunt Grace, Uncle Philip and Uncle Adrian will be missed, but they'll always be in our hearts. And now.. I better go, we've arrived.

- Somber days, Badger ♥

08-30-2008, 10:53 PM	#80 (permalink)
D.A Forever DMC & SA Banshee Join Date: Aug 2006 Posts: 50,187 x2 x3	Fortress of Brilliance ღ Mommy Quad June, 22, 2066 Uhuh.. I'm truly the worst diary owner to ever live. Or Journal, whatever. An empty book with many pages that you fill in, it's all the same. Maybe I should say I'll write again in another six months, then I would be able to say 'Ha! I was early' .. We could hope atleast. That would be the one and only time I bet, too. So I'm home now. Erhm, not feeling much better than I had on the last day. For one, Alexis and I aren't talking. We haven't stayed upset with one another longer than five minutes maximum, and she's my neighbor, our families are friends.. it's just kinda.. I dunno, I feel weird because of it. Sad, too. I didn't mean to sound the way I know I did, when I told her 'Finally figured it out huh?' I hadn't meant to say it at all. Frederic just had me so mad! I'm no better than him, though. I shouldn't have reacted that way and maybe I shouldn't have tried saying anything to him either.. Lexi was right there and she thinks we're (Frederic and I) sorta 'friends' or atleast she had. Till I asked a stupid question (His bag was making a noise, and I'm not going crazy I think it shifted even the littlest bit!) and how was I suppose to know his temper is the size of a teaspoon? I wasn't expecting him to break the glass he was holding or anything. If I had been, I would have kept my mouth shut. Breaking the cup wasn't the bad part, not really. That was easily put back together. It was the obvious anger he had shown, and that's all it too - Alexis realized we can't stand eachother. After that, everyone went their seperate ways, Ari came with me and we went to talk to Mia, but only Tancred was at the Hufflepuff table. He said we just barely missed her. I was suppose to sit with them on the train, but I hadn't. I didn't even see them, and that's probably my fault. I wasn't in much of a mood to talk to anyone. I found Joey, and we shared a compartment. He's good company when you just want peace, you know? Joseph didn't push me to talk, but was waiting patiently to listen when I was ready to actually say something, explain why I was in such a gloomy mood. Coming home, I thought I would be greeted with bright smiling faces and big hugs and excited squeals, but to both Joey and my confusion, everyone looked the way I was feeling. That's when Dad took us in another room, and told us the news. A little less than a month ago my mum's older brother Adrian had died. A potion experiment at work had gone incredibly wrong, and he didn't survive the explosion it caused; He was with us the first three days, but it had done too much damage to his body. Uncle Adrian had always known the risks and dangers of his job, and he had always been the dare-devil type (I think that's where Conner had gotten it from) but nonetheless that didn't prepare any of us for this. And, It gets worse; Mum's baby sister, Grace, and her husband Philip (Tristian and Lima's parents) were in an automobile crash. No one knows why the accident happened, it just did.. and neither made it. We've already been informed about the current plans, concerning our cousins at least. Samuel, Uncle Adrian's son, is with Aunt Silvia, Uncle Leo and the kids. No one wanted him staying with Step-mum #6, he's known her for maybe eight months. Uncle Adrian and #6 (No I don't know her name! Sam numbers them and so far that works well) were going on two months into their marriage. Sam's family, and he's going to stay close now. Tristian is an adult, and is a big git as usual. He wants nothing to do with the family even now, it's highly disappointing and honestly, it upsets me. That's NOT how Aunt Grace raised him to be, nor Uncle Philip. That's not okay, it just isn't. But if he ever has a change of heart, everyone will be willing to take him back under the family wings. Because that's what family does, no matter how dumb someone can be being, or mean, we may have our differences but we're still one big huge family and we all love eachother despite our mistakes. Maybe one day Tristian will realize that, personally it seems doubtful but I've been wrong before. I just hope Lima would forgive him, as well. Speaking of her, Whiggalima is going to come live with us. Madi and I have already started making plans of how to change our bedroom to make her more comfortable since it'll be her room too. She's at Maddox's house for alittle while, but mum's going to pick her up and bring her home when she's done visiting. Right now, we're in the van on our way to the ministry of magic over here in Italy, where mum works. She's been the head of the International Magical Cooperation Department for years now, since I was around five if I remember right. Anyways, at home our fireplace isn't hooked up to the floo-network, because we're in a muggle neighborhood, we can only have that arranged to work temporarily; it's very risky to, and mum needed to visit her office for a moment to check something over. She's taking a bit of time off work, we're going to use the floo-network there to get to Grandma Angelina's and Grandpa Carl's house. Mum thought it would be a good idea that we stay over there a few nights, and frankly I do too. Mum's been having alot of breakdowns today. How she's made it all this time without crying once I will never know, but it makes me feel bad seeing her like that. It got to everyone, this morning. We all cried, except Joey but he wasn't home, he had gone to our grandparents house a day early. Now Lydia, Lissy, Gabriel, Julian and Katie are half-asleep in the back seats. Madi, too, beside me. Mum pulled herself together quiet well (though I know her to be a strong woman, so it's not surprising); While we packed our things I could hear her and Dad talking. I know everything will be alright; it's a hundred percent normal to grieve, and right now what we need is to be together. Mum said alot of relatives would be in and out of Grandma Angelina's, too. Not just us. I half wondered if my older siblings would show up too, with their little families alongside. The next few days will be hard, but with each day things would infact get easier. With each hour, and minute. This just meant.. they were meant for something bigger and better, and they couldn't do that here on earth. Aunt Grace, Uncle Philip and Uncle Adrian will be missed, but they'll always be in our hearts. And now.. I better go, we've arrived. - Somber days, Badger ♥ __________________ Dream. Try. Do Good. I love you all, Class dismissed.