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Chapter Forty Two
“I’m not wearing anything that looks like a cake”
“That’s fine” Molly said “Simple and sophisticated”
“We’re dressing Luna, Hermione, Sophia and Cara as well”
“What colour?”
“Harry said what ever colour I want – I’m going to go with a green maybe”
“What colour is he doing the flowers?”
“White orchids and roses and ivy… he’s shown me pictures though, they’re beautiful and he’s not stupid about asking me what I want as well”
The young women stepped out of the fire place
“Luna it’s been so long” Ginny jumped on her in a hug,
“It doesn’t seem like it to me” she smiled dreamily, “School takes up my time – the importance of learning new things rather then thinking of dates and clocks”
“I’ve missed you” Ginny grinned at Luna’s remark, “Erm… now there’s been some changes to things – I want Sophia to be my maid of honour”
“Sorry isn’t ever going to be enough is it?” Hermione asked,
“Not for what you said”
“Ginny” Harry replied coming in from the kitchen “We talked about this you said-”
“- I know what I said – you also had something you wanted to ask her?” Ginny said crossing her arms,
“Hermione – forgive Ginny’s remarks and anger, I however asked her to let you go as her maid of honour so I could steal you to be one of my best men” he grinned,
“You did?” Both Ginny and Hermione asked together and Harry rolled his eyes,
“I want you and Ron beside me up there, you’re my best mates, she’s going to have Cara and Luna as Bridesmaids and Sophia playing for both teams as maid of Honour”
“Right this is going to be one weird wedding” Hermione grinned and hugged Harry,
“If you don’t want to come…” Ginny muttered to herself annoyed,
“Gin” Harry gave her a look as she glared at Hermione,
She tapped her foot impatiently, “You hated her too”
Hermione let him go and looked between them “Don’t just give me a job because you think it will make me happy and not feeling left out”
“I’m not” Harry said “I don’t hate you, I’ve grown out of that – you’re my friend, my best friend just like Ron is and your family and we both want you there – Ginny is just…”
“- Just walking away before she curses her husband” She walked out of the room and up the stairs, Harry followed after her,
“Gin”
“Don’t even think you can change my mind” she walked into the nursery so they couldn’t argue and watched them in the cot,
“Ginny” he followed her inside “Can’t you just for today try and get along with her, I’ve known her longer then you, I’ve managed to forgive what she said because of that – I know she was-”
“- was what Harry?” she butted in but was quiet enough not to wake them,
“Was wrong, and horrible and so many other things that hurt you and hurt me but I’ve forgiven her, you did once”
“Because I thought I was going to die”
“She wants to be your friend, to be there for you again give her a chance”
“Me trying and her trying isn’t going to get us anywhere, I still look at her and hear her telling me my babies should be dead”
“I do to but then I remember everything she’s done to help me, how she was my friend through thick and thin and helped me save our world just like Ron did”
“And me?”
“You more then anything, I love you, I’m in love with you so much that there’s no chance of me ever leaving or ever wanting to leave but she’s my friend and I love her too”
“I think it’s different for me then it is for you, I’m their mother – not saying that you being there dad is any less it’s just different”
“I can understand that”
“So understand because of it, I can’t let it go”
A door closed downstairs and Harry saw the green light on the white monitor by the cot, he walked over and turned it off,
He sighed “She’s gone are you happy now?”
“Ecstatic” she muttered,
“Great” he walked to the door, “While you sulk and hid I’m going to tell your mum you’ll be getting married in your uniform then”
“Don’t” she stood up “I’ll go after her ok?”
“Do what you want”
“I’m doing this for you, just don’t expect a wedding present alright – or a wedding night either” she walked past him, and out the door, he reached and took her arm and she looked back at him
“Thank you” he said meaningfully,
“Whatever Harry”
He let go and she walked down the stairs, he turned the monitor back on and followed her down,
“She’s in the front garden pacing” Sophia added as Ginny took down a cloak from beside the door,
“Hmm”
Harry came down as the door closed,
“You all heard?” The room nodded, “These things are a pain in the butt when there not being useful” he poked the monitor on the table with a finger,
“They’ll work it out” Sophia said confidently,
“Yeah right” he smirked and sat down,
“She’ll see sense” she added,
“We are talking about the same person aren’t we?” Harry replied head in his hands “I mean we are talking about Ginny Weasley one of the most stubborn people in existence?”
“Harry” Molly cut in
“Molly you know she’s just like you”
“A – Uh – yes so she is”
“Right so we know that she will not change her mind, she will not forgive Hermione and I’m going to have to live with it”
“Have you tried to see things from her point of view – her babies?”
“Excuse me but you were willing to see them dead and also had no problem with letting her know that”
“And she forgave me eventually”
“Hermione is different, you’re her mother”
“She still forgave”
“Ginny does whatever she wants to do, I’m ok with that, she’s a free spirit – it’s just when it concerns my friends, the other people I care about in my life and she has something against them that I have a problem – when she can’t, when she won’t do something to that will make everything right, then I have a bigger problem”
Molly led Luna and Cara upstairs to the twins crying on the monitor, Sophia sat down beside him “Harry – she is trying”
“I know that”
“She just needs more time to get over it”
“I know”
“So are you going to let her decide?”
“She is already”
“What if I said something?”
“Don’t – you’ll be uninvited, just don’t do anything, just leave it”
She walked in the door, took off the cloak and sat down, Sophia took it as a cue to leave and she joined the others upstairs.
“I tried”
“Hmm”
“I really did, promise – but, but – look – I mean – I tried but I can’t do it”
“Ok” he shrugged,
Ginny looked at him “You – you what?”
“I said ok Gin”
“Don’t do that” she sighed and leant back in the chair,
“Don’t do what?”
“Just give in to me, you’re not fighting – you need to fight”
“Nope”
She stared “What?!”
“Nope – I’m not fighting, not with you, not for her, I’m going to leave you to do it all by yourself because I’ve had enough”
“Had enough – enough of me?”
“Don’t be stupid – I just can’t be bothered to try and deal with you and her anymore, you can pull each other to pieces or work things out” he got up and wandered over to look out the window,
“Harry” she murmured coming up behind him and wrapping her arms round his middle –
“Yeah that’s not going to work” he moved her arms from around him,
“What more do you want from me, I’m giving you everything I can and I don’t know what else to do!”
He leant forward, palms on the bench top, his head down “Keep trying – keep trying with her”
“Why?”
“Because I need you, I need her; I need my family not this – not this mess”
“What about me, our daughters what about us - what about what she has done to us?”
“Listen to yourself Gin – what has she actually done besides say something that she begged forgiveness for?”
“You wouldn’t forgive her; you told her you would never forgive her”
“I changed my mind, being mad at her wasn’t making things easier, it didn’t make what she said go away, it didn’t just disappear and we’re happy families, it made it bearable that we could all get along, it made it so that I didn’t hate her so much I wanted to punish her for what said about my flesh and blood, my family”
“What if I don’t want to forgive her?”
“THEN DON’T” he walked away “But you know what, if she’s not up there with me, I’m not marrying you”
“WAIT A MINUTE – DON’T JUST SHOUT AT ME AND WALK AWAY”
“I’M ASKING YOU TO DO ONE THING FOR ME, JUST ONE THING”
“AND IT’S NOT SOMETHING SMALL IS IT, JUST LIKE HAVING THE TWINS, JUST LIKE LETTING YOU GO - JUST LIKE LEAVING YOU TO WANDER OFF TO DEATH BY YOURSELF!”
“THE TWINS – WHAT DO YOU MEAN THE TWINS, I NEVER FORCED YOU TO – I SAID WE’D DO WHAT EVER YOU WANTED, I WENT ALONG WITH WHAT YOU WANTED!”
“YOU MISUNDERSTOOD WHAT I MEANT”
“AND THEN YOU DRAG UP THAT I LET YOU GO TO SAVE YOU THAT I GAVE YOU UP WHEN THERE WAS NOTHING I WANTED TO DO MORE THEN TO HAVE YOU!”
“SO WHAT MAKE YOURSELF THE MARTYR AND ME THE BAD GUY, I’VE SUFFERED WITH YOU TOO, I KNOW WHAT GOES ON IN YOUR HEAD HARRY, I KNOW WHEN YOU LIE TO ME”
“I LIE TO PROTECT YOU FROM YOURSELF”
“WHAT ELSE AM I MISSING HEY, WHAT ELSE ARE YOU LYING TO ME ABOUT – I KNOW ABOUT SOPHIA AND GEORGE, I KNOW THAT ONCE YOU FELT YOU DIDN’T TRUST ME ENOUGH TO LOOK AFTER MYSELF AND THE BABIES I WAS CARRYING, I KNOW YOU HARRY AND I WANT TO KNOW WHAT I’M MISSING”
“NOTHING”
“THAT’S THE BIGGEST LIE YET!”
“NOTHING!” he repeated, Ron stepped out of the fireplace,
“Hey guys – erm…” he got as far as that as he saw the anger on both there faces,
“Everyone else is upstairs hiding I’d suggest you do the same while I finish letting my wife abuse me” Ginny picked up a plate and threw at the wall behind him,
“Gin” Ron said stepping forward; she drew her wand this time and he backed off,
“Just leave us to it hey” Harry replied
“No if one of you is going to kill the other I’m not”
“It’s not like that” Harry continued “She’s just angry; it will fade in a minute once she’s thrown a few more things at me”
“Bloody won’t” she muttered aiming a teddy bear that bounced off of his shoulder and onto the floor,
“Harry” Ron said,
“Go alright, go and tell them that the smash was nothing, that we’ll be sorted soon ok”
“Fine” he gave in reluctantly
“Hold on take these” he said handing him two bottles of milk out of the fridge, “Molly will know what to do” and let him trudge up the stairs,
“Sit down” Harry said firmly taking a seat at the table,
“No”
“Sit down Ginny” She yanked at a chair and crossed her arms sitting down, “What do you think I’m lying to you about?”
“I don’t know your feelings for Hermione maybe?”
“She’s my best friend nothing more”
“Right and I’m supposed to believe that”
“I’m starting to think you might be paranoid, Gin I’m not going to leave you, I couldn’t leave you it would kill me, it nearly has before”
She seemed to consider and believe “And what about the girls?”
“I’m not going to leave any of you, you have to believe me, I’m married to you, I’m marrying you again for gods sake trust me when I say I love you and I’m not going anywhere will take me from you or our daughters”
“Tell me what your lying about to protect me from”
“The whole point of not telling you would become void and you would be in pain and angry”
“I CAN’T GET ANYMORE ANGRY THEN I AM RIGHT NOW HONEY”
He replied calmly “Then it can wait until you’re rational”
“Rational, I find out lies and you want me to be rational – not cursing you senseless is rational enough for me”
“But throwing plates is?”
“That was a reflex reaction”
“Yeah you’re calm enough that I want to tell you everything”
“Everything - we’re not supposed to have secrets!”
“These aren’t secrets, these are things that help keep me sane and you sedated”
“SEDATED”
“Like the outbursts you seem to be having and your brain looks ready to explode at any given moment”
“Don’t think I won’t hurt you”
“What worse then what your already doing to me, your making me feel guilty for trying to do what’s right by you”
“What did you expect me to say to Hermione Harry – that I’m sorry you felt you had to tell me I should have killed my daughters because you didn’t think we could raise them without killing them anyway – perhaps?”
“To say that you could get on for the sake of keeping our family together – to keep the peace Ginny, to stop my husband’s heart being torn out, stomped on and cut in half”
“I’m not making you chose between us” she said pausing “There shouldn’t be a choice, there shouldn’t be a thought in your head that says you chose your friendship with her over your wife and your daughters”
“It’s not like that, it’s that you won’t let me have her as my friend because you don’t like her anymore, there is no choice between you and her don’t even consider it, you’d win without even thinking about it”
“Have her as your friend, I don’t care but you can’t force her to be mine”
“I’m not; I’m asking you just to get on, to make things easier without the snide remarks”
“Why don’t you go and shout at her for a bit then hey?”
“Because I know you’ll listen to me eventually, because I know out of the two of you, you’ll make the bigger effort to try”
“You’re trying to make me see that I’m not mad at you anymore it’s not going to work”
“Just go pick a dress and leave me to pick my sanity off the floor”
“No” she replied and moved to open his arms so she could sit on his lap curling them around her securely, “We’re not finished here”
“What’s left – are you going to attempt to change my mind?”
“No” her hand reached to his cheek, “Tell me”
“Tell you?”
“Uh huh”
“Promise not to be angry with her”
“WITH HER!” she said moving from his embrace but he pulled her back in,
“With your mum”
“Why?”
“Because – because the doctors said it might have been her that made Patience sick – her hands, she was de gnoming the garden and might have got distracted not washing them before she held the girls or something”
“Right”
“Gin”
“I’m not mad at her”
“Ok”
“I’m too mad at you and Hermione to direct it anywhere else”
“Ok”
“What else?”
“What do you mean?” his hand ran through her hair lightly,
“Other secrets”
“There is nothing else that immediately comes to mind”
“So I’m left to presume there are something’s?”
“Yeah but I can’t remember them so they don’t count” he kissed the part of her head he could reach,
“Hmm”
“Will you try?”
She took a deep breath,
“Will you try?”
“Yeah” she mumbled. He kissed her before she could say anything else.
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RIP JD Salinger |